Monday, October 09, 2006

Coming tomorrow.....

I think tomorrow, if I have time, I will be real honest about how I feel towards some people, and things that have been bothering me. I do not think it will be pretty. I know some people are going to be mad..... some may be hurt. It's not that I don't care.... but, some things need to be said. Topics will be(but not limited to) Friends, girls(girls are stupid), relationships, stupid people, and life in general. I am also going to introduce you to "The Porch Productions", "The Batcave", and some characters you need to know about.

If you are included in tomorrows post..... I hope you are not offended. But, I can't promise you anything. By the way, sometimes you just need to know if there is still a spark somewhere...... some things are better left unknown. Peace.........

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Monday, October 02, 2006

The Return.....

So, without any details of where I have been for the last few months...... I return! First, I want to say thank you to all of the people who have emailed me asking me for new posts. This is for you.......



I Wonder


I wonder if she knows that I used to think about her everyday? I wonder if she knows that the only reason I ever moved on to someone else is because she left and said she was never coming back to me? I wonder if she knows how much one phone call means when it's from her? I wonder if she knows that when she doesn't call it means even more? I wonder if she would have stayed if she really believed I loved her? I wonder if I showed it enough? I wonder if she really wants to come back, or if she is just lonely? I wonder if I care what the reason is? I wonder if she means what she says? I wonder if she believes what I say? I wonder if she wonders these things about me? I wonder if she has any of the same feelings I do...... every time I see her? I wonder if we can do this? I wonder......

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Monday, August 07, 2006

I know you thought I was gone...... but Superman Returns!!!!! Coming back real soon...... can you feel it?

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Monday, February 20, 2006

Peace.....




Well, I am off to Alabama fo awhile. That's all I got to say about that.

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Tuesday, February 07, 2006

Start Over......





Can I just start this whole thing over again? I did not do very well the first time, as a matter of fact, some say I completely failed. I can't really argue. I have started things and left them unfinished, I have done the wrong thing more than once, I have given up on people.... including myself, I just did it wrong. So, if you don't mind.... I would like to go to sleep tonight, and when I wake, I would like to start over. I am not greedy... just give me the last ten years back. I promise to do it all different. do it better, do it right. I know I broke it the first time. I didn't mean to. I don't know how to do it better, but I figure if I do the complete opposite of what I did this first time.... I'll be just fine. Some say it was broken before I got control of it, is that possible? Did you give me a broken life from the start? If you did.... why would you do that to me? What did I do to you? Whatever it was... I am sorry. I have been lost for a long time, and I need you to find me. Fix me. Help me. What's that? Fix it myself? Yeah see, I tried that. I am incapable of loving someone, trusting someone, and believing in myself. Which one shall I fix first? And more important, how do I do it? Just give me some answers, a manual, some instructions.... something. Now you want to give me what? Oh, a word of encouragement? Does one of those null and void the thousands of words of unencouragement I got growing up? I didn't know it worked that way. You see, I am starting to think that you did this to me on purpose, that I may have had very little control over anything. I am not mad at you for it, maybe it was just an accident. But, please just hit the reset button... I'll start over and make us both proud. I am too hard, too cold, too afraid, too damaged to start from here. So, I just ask that you give me the fair and level ground that others had before me. Can you do that? Hello?........No? Alright, well thanks for the consideration.


BEN

I have not forgot about you. I never will. I miss you, but it's not your fault. I got some good news, and some bad. What do you want first? The good? Alright. Well, where do I start? Your mom and brother semm to be doing ok. They miss you, too. Notre Dame is finally a football powerhouse again, and the Cavs' seem playoff bound. Wish you were here to see this Lebron James kid. He seems to be the next Micheal Jordan.... and he plays in Cleveland!!! Bad news time though.... Remember what I said about Notre Dame being good again? They went to the Fiesta Bowl this year and lost to...... ummmm.... Ohio State. Sorry, but it gets worse..... The Browns still stink, and the Steelers' won the SuperBowl. I wouldn't joke about that buddy..... seems like you still can't beat me! At least I wrote this in your favorite color. Miss ya.


Walk Away

Things are not going well in the relationship. No one here can argue that. We hardly talk, we never see each other, we don't have fun together, we don't laugh, we don't smile. We surely don't fool others. I don't make her feel warm and fuzzy. She feels no love. We don't hold hands. We barely kiss. We don't hold each other.It's not progressing. There is no future in this. We are good friends, but thats all. It sucks...... But, what comes next sucks even more = It's all my fault. I am cold, unattached.... a broken person who has no capability of doing this right. I care. Don't get me wrong. I care alot. I just can't watch her being miserable anymore. I can't see her be sad. Not when it is my fault. She deserves someone, anyone else. I can't make her happy. Someone needs to do it right. She is a great girl. I can't be selfish here..... so I open the door, so she can leave peacefully. Make sure she doesn't turn back. Love....


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Wednesday, January 04, 2006

Real Quick....

Just had to tell you about a friend of mine that has started her own Blog!!!! Yay!!! you always see her on the sidebar leaving comments as BER...... Here is a link to her site... just click and enjoy!!!!!! Bookmark her and visit often!!!!!!


The Truth, That Feeling, Believe It
Click Here



P.S. I am off to the gym, yesterday I was down to 225 lbs.!!!!!

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Tuesday, January 03, 2006

Credit Cards... by Alex

Credit cards - the devil. The turning wheel of the economy. Actually the turning wheel is greed, or the greed provoked by the government. People are greedy. That's why they are miserable. Everyone wants to have more then the rest. To have more in one aspect of life or another. Whether it is money aspect, knowledge aspect, etc. Seems that's the way things work. Everyone want to go to sleep thinking "Yeah, I got it good... I am better off all the miserable fuckers I know. I got money/friends/brains compared to the people around me. Yeah, I got it good". Smile happily and go to bed.
Why don't we appreciate the conveniences of modern life the way someone from the past would appreciate them if he had them? Why don't we enjoy things the way an African or an Asian would? Why our kids don't play and protect their toys as the poor kids in other countries would? It's not the kid's fault. They are a product of the environment they were brought in. Environment created by their parents. The environment of the parents is created by society. The environment of the society is created by government. A government created by the society. A society created by parents. Parents that were a product of their environment. It's a vicious circle. There is very few that are trying to break that cycle. I think it is important to ask questions and be awake. To think about what is religion, marriage, relationships, happiness. Not just to go with the flow. I think the only way a person can be happy is to be a good person, to do what is right, the way his consciousness tells him (and not rationalize his egoism). It's sounds simple. So simple. People usually expect a complex solution to being happy. They expect a secret mathematical formula to be the key to happiness. I don't think there is one. The credit cards are the ones that keeps in this vicious cycle that we live in.
Look at this rich dude from the commercial, how awesome would it be to be like him. If I was him I would be sooo happy. It might be a little expensive but I will buy this - at least I would be better off. Hi, this plasma TV, yeah this one for $50,000, it says on the specs that it can give blowjobs and cook too. I would like to buy it... how low can you make my monthly payments? It doesn't matter how years would it take me to pay it off. And don't even mention the interest because I am scared I would decide against buying it. Even if the payments are a little over then what I can afford... I will think of something. For a product like this one I will push myself a little harder and make some extra cash. Just as long as I can have it as soon as possible. I will get together with friends at home and we will have a an awesome time. I will use it day and night. I would caress the remote control and we will live happily ever after. I am not sure if I will have any friends left if I have to work all the time in order to afford it? Sure I will have friends. Everyone would want to come look at my TV. I will be the center of attention... and I will answer everyone's questions about it.
Am I exaggerating. Of course I am. But I do it to explain the world around me. That's how I see things. I want to be different too. I want to have something more than the rest of world. Call me crazy. I try to be different and aware. That's why I quit drinking pop and watching TV. And pretend to be a minimalist. I try not to be a sheep. I try to push the door on my little cell. The cell in which I just get the energy sucked out of me. I am not a huge fan of the movie the Matrix but its idea is pretty good. I am one crazy Neo, one Keanu Reeves, one James Dean. A rebel :)
Credit cards are very smart and tricky. Almost magical. You give the cashier the credit card for a second; and then you get whatever it is you are pointing at. Magic wands are for losers... cool wizards have credit cards. They are waaaay more compact then a magic wand. They fit right in your wallet. There probably is an explanation how credit cards work and how we should use them. But why should I bother with that kind of information. The important thing is that I am getting what I want right now. And airplanes fly somehow... even though they are so heavy. But it doesn't matter. What's important is that it lands in Las Vegas. Lately even spending money takes up too much time. It takes energy and time even to go shopping. You have to think what you want, get inspiration to go buy it. It's easier to just throw your money away... as long as it is commonly accepted. How about the chance to win more money... that's it. As long as other people gamble... then I can do that too. It doesn't matter how I would spend more money then I have right now... I can't even think of what to buy. But I will think about that later.
Yeah... I overdid the philosophical part in this post. I think that is enough for today. I am going to go eat something... something with lots of preservatives and chemicals in it. I wish my mom can cook me something right now.

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Monday, January 02, 2006

A Little Bit of This......And That!

Damon's


My favorite restaurant in my area is Damon's Grill... If you do not have one in your area, it is a place for Ribs, Steak and Spirits... I love the food and the atmosphere. I also love that they have a bunch of big screen TV's to watch all your favorite sporting events. They also have NTN Buzztime trivia!!! None of my friends care for it too much, nor does my girlfriend... But, since it is my favorite, I get to go there!!! Why don't they like it, you ask? Well, the service is horrible, you rarely get things the way you order it, and it usually takes forever. I like it because you never know what you are gonna get... And you always have something to laugh about. If you expect the unexpected... This is the place for you. I'll give you a few examples... You be the judge.
  • There is one particular waitress that takes your order, then you don't see her again until it is time to pay the bill... As an added bonus, if you pay with a credit card, she will not bring you a pen. As a matter a fact, she has been heard saying this.... Wait for it...... "You brought your own pen, right?"
  • If you want to play NTN Buzztime trivia, the same waitress will surprise you with the fact that she does not know what a Playmaker is( the gameboard that you play trivia on ). They have had this trivia system for many years! She will give you a look kinda similar to a puppy tilting his head when he is confused.
  • You might not get everything exactly how you want it. I always ask for a water and a Coke... I usually get one of the two. I always say "No lemon in my water".... ( I like my water to taste like water, not Pledge) I usually get the lemon anyhow. I like extra dressing with my salad... never get it. Your food will not be cooked how you like it, and they may forget something. Expect it.
  • It takes them at least 2 hours to clean off a dirty table. There seems to be no hurry or method to cleaning... first, they may take the dishes off.... and whatever the next step is will be a half hour later. It is funny how the tip will be picked up immediately after the customers leave.
  • When you do play trivia, the questions appear on one of the big screen Tv's, and you answer them on your Playmaker. Sometimes there is a retard in the bar that wants to yell the answers out loud. You know that person.... there are 14 people playing, but this person wants to ruin the game for everyone. I have no problem telling the person to stop yelling out the answers, but it doesn't matter. On a side note.... Advice to you people who like to shout out the answers.... Please shout out the right answer, because it is sad and embarassing to show the world how stupid you are.
So, those are some minor reasons.... but, they have the best after dinner mints..... ever! If you have any good or bad stories from Damon's, or any other places.... leave a comment!
New Years' Eve
(some events from the night)
"My Taxidermist Did My....."

This a very short story... but, too funny to leave out. I was at the bar and Shaf was talking to one of his buddies.... all I heard was this.... "Last year my taxes got all messed up when I took them to my taxidermist." Well enough said I guess. For those who do not want their taxes messed up.... do not take them to someone who stuffs animals( a taxidermist ).... just take them to an accountant.


I Told You to Move to Nebraska....


I swear I told you to move to Nebraska... I was trying to help. Just think if you would have listened! You could have been partying there, you could have been happy because Nebraska beat Michigan 32-28 in the Alamo Bowl! Oh yeah... and you would not have got punched in the mouth by Lauren like I said was going to happen. Not only are you responsible for getting yourself beat up... but, also that big motherfucker that decided to help you. You guys want a play by play real quick, don't you? Ok, I got you................ So we are on the dance floor, having a good time.... and "Hat Girl" comes and tries to dance with me because she wants my New Years' hat. ( IRONIC ) Anyway, I tell her to get off me.... And Lauren comes over and says.... "Remember me?"
Hat Girl: "Yes"
Lauren: "You wanna talk shit now?"
Hat Girl: "Listen I don't want any problems, I am grown"
Lauren: "Ok then apologize to me"
Hat Girl: "I am not apologizing for anything"
Lauren puts her drink and purse down
Lauren: "Apologize"
Hat Girl: "Fuck Y....."
(sentence not finished due to Laurens' fist in her mouth)
Lauren continues to beat her ass... and some 400 pound dude grabs Lauren. Mistake. So Shaf runs at him and pulls him off of her, then punches him in the mouth. I can't just let Shaf handle this big boy on his own (even though I am sure he could have taken him out by himself )... anyways, is that not what your boys are for? So, as we play Pinball with this dude's face.... he goes down quickly. He gets up, with help of his friends, and says "Who hit me?"... Bro, you know who hit you. Go clean off your face, and call it a night. Don't ever put your hands on a girl. And Hat Girl..... I don't think hats are your thing.


Pop The Cork..... Or Don't!


I am very disappointed at the "11th Hour Nite Club" for not providing Champagne for New Years' Eve! You don't have to give it away for free.... sell it! You could have made a few bucks. Instead we had free shots of Apple Pucker and 7-Up? What is that? Pucker is used to flavor other liqours... it is very weak. I had to be a dick to people, even as I was agreeing with them. They were complaining about the weak shots, as I was telling them to zip it.... because they were free. The bar dropped the ball......

So, that was New Years' Eve.... exciting! What did you do? Tell me!


Browns' Game Trip.....



Alphabet Game


You all know this game.... on a long road trip, you find signs with words that go in order of the alphabet.... you know like "A"= Allstate.... "B"= Burger King.... etc, etc. Lauren sometimes likes to cheat. For example.... One day we were playing and we were on "D".... Lauren says "J.D. Byrider!!!" Ok No. In the same game we were on "F".... and she says "422 Motel".... No! "It starts with an "F".... the number 4 does start with an "F".... but that is cheating. That is like seeing a picture of a tree and saying "T"! Speaking of "T".... we were on the way to the Browns game, we were playing this game.... we were on "H" and Lauren screams out "Through!" She was dead serious guys..... and it starts with a "T". We continue the game until we get to "Q"... we struggle for about a half an hour, and everyone just gave up. The car breaks down on the highway... it over heated, so we had to wait for it to cool down. Fun. We finally get rolling, and Lauren decides to call her retarded ex ( who irons his underwear ) for the best way to get to downtown Cleveland.... and she is talking to him and says "We just passed a sign that said Toledo......", so he tells us we went too far and to turn around. I had no idea why we were getting off the highway.... until she told me. I am like "We are going the right way.... get back on the highway." We can't find the highway, so we stop at a Fire Station for directions. Listen, there are 500 signs that say Toledo.... as a matter of fact, they go all the way to Toledo. As we are getting back on the highway.... Lauren yells out "Quiet!" I was confused because no one was talking..... she was still playing the alphabet game.

By the way... the Browns won, but who cares? They still suck, and The STEELERS' are going to the playoffs!

Sexy Fat Guy


I have started to go to the gym again..... I was 235 when I started, and after one week I am down to 227! Just wait 'til I get really going..... I am gonna be a stud again. I mean not that I haven't always been! You've got to admit that I am one sexy fat guy!




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Monday, December 26, 2005

"Two Tickets to Hell Please"......

So, Xmas is over.... thankfully! Don't get me wrong..... I hope everyone had a great time, and I hope you got everything you wanted. If you did not get everything you wanted, remember this.... if you did not lose any family members or friends this year..... you got plenty. That's what it is all about.

Every Xmas day I get some friends together and go to the movies, this year was no exception. It was just me and Brandon this year, and we decided to go to see "The Ringer" with Johnny Knoxville. Ok, so you know when you buy a ticket to this movie... you also get a ticket to HELL!!!! I mean it.... I did not know that it was buy one get one free.... but, I soon found out. This movie is a test from Jesus.... if you laugh at mentally challenged people.... you go to H E double hockey sticks. I swear. Johnny Knoxville acts retarded ( more retarded than normal ), and the rest of the cast is actual retarded people...... so, how the fuck can you laugh at that? Seriously, I know this movie is meant to make you laugh... but don't. It has no plot, bad acting, and the only funny parts..... are stuff you should not laugh at. Many times, Brandon looked at me and said.... "We are going to Hell." It's true. We went to see this movie on Jesus' Birthday... that is like first class ticket to Hell shit.

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Tuesday, December 20, 2005

What's New?


Graduation!!!

FER graduated from YSU on Sunday!!!! Yay! Congratulations babe, I am proud of you! No more going straight from work to school.... more time for me!!!! Sweet! Everyone say Congrats to her!!!!!!


Annoying Me.....

Someone is really starting to annoy me.... hopefully you know who you are. I cannot stand when people are so selfish that they simply care about themselves. That's all on that......


Keep on Truckin'.....

Yeah, so I bought a truck. What's that? Oh, I know you haven't seen it.... that's probably because we cannot find the owner of the title to get another copy.... which we need! Great.... it's like I made a donation to the guy that sold it to me. Merry Christmas!


Toys For Tots.....


Do yourself a favor.... donate a toy to Toys For Tots. Imagine if you were a kid and got nothing for Xmas.... come on! When you were a kid, how long did you anticipate Xmas? I bet it was like the day after Thanksgiving. Not convinced yet? Ok, so if you have kids..... I magine not being able to afford to get them anything.... how embarrassing. What's it gonna cost you? No more than $20... I promise. One unwrapped toy will go for miles in a childs heart. You'll feel good about yourself. Still not convinced? Ok, so do it for me..... No, really. Instead of buying me something that I don't need.... take that money and buy a new, unwrapped toy and drop it off at a Fire Dept. Kids are our future, and they are the ones that matter.


Advice...

Some holiday advice..... really it can be used any time of the year. If you are a guy, and you are drunk in a bar.... please don't get "Beer Balls".... please don't talk out of your ass.... please don't make me, or one of my boys, punch you in your mouth. Thanks. If you are a girl that likes to wear your hat in the bar..... because you think you are special.... make sure you can back it up. Don't wait until someone is holding back the other girl, or don't keep saying "I am gonna give you 3 seconds to get out of my face"..... once you say it twice..... it has already been like 8 seconds. You might as well say " I am gonna give you 4 days to get out of my face". By the way, if you are reading this, I would move to Nebraska if I were you..... right now. No? Ok, I am sure someone is gonna see you this weekend.

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Friday, December 16, 2005

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Wednesday, December 14, 2005
It's That Time of Year....Again.

Yeah, it's halfway over.... that's what I keep trying to tell myself. Most people start their countdown near midnight on New Years' Eve.... I start mine the day before Thanksgiving. See, I can't wait for the holidays to be over, they never go fast enough. Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Years' are all great times... don't get me wrong, but they are all family holidays..... something I don't have. It's great when you have a nice, close family.... you all get together on Thanksgiving, you get to see people you haven't had the chance to in awhile, you get to eat great food, watch football with the guys.... and go home stuffed, and loved. It's great. Christmas brings all the parties.... you go to the aunts' on one night, you go to grandmas' on another, then everyone comes to your house. You exchange gifts, you drink, you laugh, you love. Once again, it's great. I guess New Years' is more for friends than family... but alot of families go to dinner to talk about the year, the good, the bad, and all the unreal resolutions for the year to come.

It's a little different for me..... see, I don't do any of those things. Why? Well, the one common factor in all those things is family. I don't have one of those. Never really did. Not alot of you guys know my past.... I usually like it that way. You want to know what makes me who I am? My family... or lack thereof. I have no childhood memories before the age of nine.... I've blocked them out for some reason, probably to protect myself. I cannot remember once in my life hearing "I Love You" from my mother or my father. No lie. Not once. I never knew what love was until about five years ago.... matter of fact, I am still unsure. I have tried many times to reconcile relations with my family.... but, nothing will ever come of that, as long as the other side is unwilling to admit they made some mistakes. Listen, I know you read this sometimes..... say you are sorry for some stuff, say you love me, do something before it is too late.... I don't want to go through this again next year, I don't know if I can. I don't want to cry in the middle of the day for no apparent reason, I don't want to cry myself to sleep, I don't want to hurt anymore. Can you understand that I am half a person because of this emptiness? Please, just pick up the phone and call me.

I been in a funk lately.... I guess you may be able to see why now. I sometimes just want to sleep all day.... see, if I am sleeping... I can't think of these things. I am depressed right now. I miss Ben. I miss my family.


"More Than Anyone"

You need a friend
I'll be around
Don't let this end
Before I see you again
What can I say to convince you
To change your mind of me?
I'm going to love you more than anyone
I'm going to hold you closer than before
And when I kiss your soul, your body'll be free
I'll be free for you anytime
I'm going to love you more than anyone
Look in my eyes, what do you see?
Not just the color
Look inside of me
Tell me all you need and I will try
I will try
I'm going to love you more than anyone
I'm going to hold you closer than before
And when I kiss your soul, your body'll be free
I'll be free for you anytime
I'm going to love you more than anyone
Free for you, whenever you need
We'll be free together baby
Free together baby
I'm going to love you more than anyone
I'm going to hold you closer than before
And when I kiss your soul, your body'll be free
I'll be free for you anytime
I'm going to love you more than anyone
I'm going to love you more than anyone

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Wednesday, December 07, 2005

Some pics of friends.......


This is DjB-Fresh (on your left).... lives in Alabama now....... Miss Ya! He is a great DJ... learned from the best! Can't wait 'til you come home for X-mas!!! Go see him at MySpace.....
  • CLICK HERE....DJ B-Fresh!!!
    •
    Next to him here is his brother.... what's wrong with this picture? One is white and one is black.... oh he isn't? Tell him that.... Josh!!!! You are White!!!!! And you look kinda tough in this pic.... wanna throw down? Lol... Love ya kid! You can see him at MySpace as well.....



    This is Brew.... still lives here for now.... he has been a very good friend.... Love Ya! YOU CAN GO SEE HIS PAGE HERE.....





    This Alex- or "Bulgarian".... he is my roommate and friend.... he is really cool, and really smart if he'll let you get to know him..... (Just give him some medicine.... aka... beer!) YOU CAN SEE HIM ON MYSPACE.......
  • CLICK HERE....The Bulgarians' Page!!!



    • Ok if you are sober..... raise your hand.... not so fast fellas! So, Shaff is on your left, Alex in the middle, then me on your right. Shaff is a really cool cat.... got my back always and I got yours.


    We have a bunch of girls and the Prince... big surprise! Clockwise: Britt (who is about as cool and sweet as you can get), Amber (crazy, crazy, and crazy.... she is fun as hell!), Sara (so cute, a sweetheart), Amy ( crazy when she is drunk), Prince (whore.... a great friend..... for life bro). By the way that's Big Steve in the backround!


    Captain Morgan himself....Bri.... he is a crazy, funny dude. If you don't know... you better ask somebody!


    What kind of gangsta face am I making? Looks like I gotta doo doo.... Anyway, your left to right.... Sandy (a real cool gal), Ethrees (or Eric... who cannot call anyone), Lauren (yes, her shirt says "Hugs not Drugs"), and me.


    Whoever started the rumor that Lauren was drunk..... oh, forget it... she was. Listen, Lauren is the coolest girl I know.... she is sweet, smart, and will not take your shit. She is always right.... and she loves to watch men make out with each other..... What?! Friend for life... unless you cheat on Shaff.... then we gotta cut a bitch! LOL.....


    Is this not the best smile ever? So drunk.... I think you drank yourself retarded.... Hey Shaff, what's the worst part of winning the special olympics? Even if you win, your still retarded! Do you guys like the dog we are holding between us?


    If one more person says we were drunk!!!!!!! Who is holding who up here?


    Don't cha wish you girlfriend was hot like me? Britt and Cassie.



    Hey turn the flash up! Kara and Sara!
    See Kara here........
  • CLICK HERE

    • See Sara here........
  • CLICK HERE



    • This is Vinnie.... look familiar? It's my twin!!!! Wanna hear something funny??? My ex (you know, the devil) dated him after she dated me..... wonder why? He is a cool dude.... see him here.....
  • CLICK HERE



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    "When The Night Falls Down....."

    When the night falls down around me,
    And there is nothing left to see....
    Where do we go, who are we?

    We are sinners, we are lovers,
    We are dirty under covers,
    We are sisters, cousins, brothers.

    Don't you want it now?
    Does it matter how?
    Whether it's fair or foul?

    We learn from mothers, we learn from fathers,
    When we are sons, when we are daughters...
    What do we learn when they don't bother?

    We have to learn from mistakes,
    'Cuz we seal our own fates...
    And it's never too late.

    They don't make us who we are,
    Even though they create our scars...
    We create our own destiny, by far!

    When the night falls down around me,
    And there is nothing left to see....
    Where do we go, And who are we?

    Original by Shawn

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    Tuesday, December 06, 2005

    Don't read this!... by Alex




    Pain is what defines us. What makes our life good? How do we know we are having a good time? How do we know something makes us happy? I guess I didn't really think about those questions hard enough to think of an answer. But... its pain what makes us enjoy things, its boredom that makes us have a good time, its misery that makes us happy. And what makes us a free... is the opportunity to be able to get away and bend/break the rules sometimes. Can you imagine if your car had a chip that would transmit to the police station every time you hit 36 in 35mph speed limit zone? Technically you are breaking the law if you go over the speed limit. And imagine instanteneously getting a ticket printed from you dashboard. Welcome to the matrix.
    Now... what makes pretty girls pretty? That's right... you guessed it. The ugly ones. We can't appreciate beauty if there was nothing ugly. So don't be mean to the ugly ones... they have their purpose. Plus beauty is a very relative thing. Although there are some standards in whats beautiful and what isn't... its usually what you make of it. Thank god people have different taste... otherwise some people will be very miserable... :)
    What I am trying to say is... it's all good. And quit bitching.
    Cheers
    P.S. I told you not to read this.

    posted by Сашо ICQ 329346266 at 2:17 AM 3 People have told me what they think.... click here! Don't be scared.

    Random Thoughts.... (and Snakes)

    It has been couple weeks, and you guys have been blowing up my email.... so, I guess it's that time. Time to post......
    Christmas!!!!

    It is that time of year again.... Christmas! Well, I don't really do the holidays anymore.... You know? It's like a family time of year, a time to get with the family, see the cousins that you haven't seen or talked to in forever. You see everyone that you don't normally talk to, you go to the grandmas house that you don't even like, you send cards to people that you don't want to call... etc. I think it's is alot of being fake, I think you don't talk to those people all year for a reason, I think it has become a Hallmark holiday, a corporate holiday.... you know a time to spend the money you don't have, it's all bull! And you know what else????????? I miss it. I wish sometime I had what you have.... a family to be with, fight with, eat and get drunk with.... etc. I envy you. Yes, you. All the stuff you hate doing around the holidays.... I miss it. So be thankful. Be thankful you have your family, be thankful you have your best friend by your side.... please.... do it for me. Be nice, say "I Love You", give a hug, tell them you miss them.... they won't always be there.
    My Girl.....

    Things have been good between me and my girl. I have not seen alot of her lately... you see she is about to graduate from YSU, and the nights have been filled with alot of studying and doing assignments to wrap up the school year. So.... it's been a test for me as well because I love seeing her. I been very patient.... because I adore her. I am sure things will get better very shortly.... not that they aren't good..... but you know more is always better! Keep studying baby..... and be prepared for many long nights..... ;)...... I am not sure if I am allowed to call her "My Girl" yet..... am I babe?

    "They Chase Me In the Parking Lot!!!"

    This is almost too funny to post... and it will be even funnier to those of us that were there. Ok, so let me set the scene.... day after Thanksgiving (you know.... the worst day to shop!), and I go shopping with Shaff and Lauren for their kids Christmas gifts.... so we get there and get a cart, and to the toys we go! So, Lauren starts grabbing stuff and filling the cart.... while me and Shaff kept asking if we could go to the electronics..... "NO" was the answer every time. So, me and Shaff start throwing a ball around.... "STOP IT RIGHT NOW".... ok, ok..... geez! So I put on a Darth Vader mask to entertain myself.... and others! Then we get our chance..... "GO SEE WHAT TIME LAYAWAY CLOSES".... so, we go. As soon as we turn the corner we see a kid who works there and ask him..... so we get the answer, and run to the electronics. We come back ten minutes later.... and the cart is filled! We grab another cart to catch the overflow, and Luaren says "I THINK I GOT LIKE $300 SPENT HERE". I tell her it's more like $400, but Lauren can never be wrong (it just feels too good being right). So we are almost done.... just need to get an outfit for a little girl.... easy right? Well Lauren finds one rather quickly, all that she needs to find is a plain white tee shirt to go with it. A half hour later... no white tee. I thought Shaff was gonna lose it. LOL. So we head to the Layaway.... we hurry up and get in line, just seconds before some lady with two things.... she is patient for like 2 seconds and says " Jesus... I only have two things!!!" Lol. I know, right? So she leaves... I mean is Layaway for two things anyway? I mean I understand if it is a TV and Playstation.... but I swear she had a pair of Wranglers' and a Snickers bar! So, we get to the counter... and it is already chaos in there! They had cookies and punch.... but they were way gone! Dammit! Our cashier was Velma ( it was Velma, not Velva... Lauren! ), she was a sweet older lady.... anyway.... I was acting silly as I always do, just to make people laugh. I start loading stuff on the counter so she can scan them.... and things are going fine. Then, as I put three of the fakest looking snakes on the counter.... she flipped, blew a gasket, totally freaked out. I thought she was not so serious.... so I pick one up and shake it in her face.... well, she was serious. Let me see if I can reinact this for you..... "AHHHHH, OH NO, OH NO.... I CAN'T DO IT.... YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND.... AHHHHH... PLEASE....."(as another cashier has to come and scan them)..... "OH MY....AHHHH.... THEY CHASE ME IN THE PARKING LOT.... YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND....AHHHHH!" So that kinda killed the mood.... so I start complaining that the cookies and punch was gone to change the subject.... and I got us some new cookies and punch... which was awesome! "SO, YOUR TOTAL IS $512.43"..... Ha!!!!! Anyway, the punch was so good.... and on our way out I told everyone I could about the free cookies and punch..... one lady was like "GOOD LOOKING OUT".... sweet. Lauren was like "I am never taking you anywhere!!!" lol.... In the parking lot, I told two little kids about the freebies, and their Mom like grab them and run.... like I was gonna abduct them!!! Hey, lauren.... "HEY KID... NICE EARMUFFS!!!"

    posted by djshawn at 12:22 AM 5 People have told me what they think.... click here! Don't be scared.

    Friday, November 25, 2005

    Medicine... by Alex




    Most of the time I am quiet and shy. Its a disease some foreigners have. Good thing there is medicine for this. Beer. My suggestion is that, if you want to meet me or talk to me... try to do it when I am drunk (or tipsy). I might even say something funny. Unfortunately I am not drunk (or tipsy) very often. What sucks about this medicine is the side effects - puking, hangover, being stupid, etc. What to do?
    Tiny piece of information about Bulgaria - No, we don't have Thanksgiving in Bulgaria... the Pilgrims passed up Bulgaria when traveling with their ships. And if the Pilgrims killed a cat instead of a turkey, then we... we wouldn't be eating turkey on Thanksgiving.
    Keep it real!

    posted by Сашо ICQ 329346266 at 10:07 AM 5 People have told me what they think.... click here! Don't be scared.

    Tuesday, November 22, 2005

    So, What Do You Do When.....

    Hi Guys.... I know it's been about a week and a half since I posted anything with real meaning.... so, here I am. Don't think I am doing it for you, though. Don't get it twisted... Lol! This is, and always will be, for me. But, I will admit that the dozen or so emails I received did make me motivated.... so, Thank You!

    Shout out!
    I got to give a shout out to Shaff.... it's his Birthday! Everyone please send him a Happy Birthday here.... rmshaffer@west.com! Happy Birthday bro! Love Ya!


    So, What Do You Do When.....

    • ... You don't feel the same as she/he does?
    What do you do? How do you say it? How do you spare someones feelings? I don't know.... but, I do know that you do have to be honest. You have to do what feels right to you, or what your heart tells you to. If you don't do those two things.... all will fall down. It is not an easy thing to do, not at all. And it definitely is not easy to hear. You ever been on the opposite end of that conversation? It sucks. You are usually surprised, hurt, maybe mad. Hurt has to be the strongest emotion there though. Basically someone is telling you that you are not the one they want, maybe you are not good enough for them, maybe you are a bad kisser.... who knows. They always say things like...."It's not you, it's me", or " I just don't want a boyfriend right now." Ok, let me set things straight.... it is you, and they do want someone... just not you. Sorry. So, what do you do? Well if you are the one giving the news.... it is ok, just be honest. No one can blame you for being honest.... just keep in mind that you are dealing with someones' feelings, and maybe their heart. And don't say "We can still be friends".... You know why? Because the first time he or she got up the courage to call you.... they were not thinking "I hope she will be my friend." Not saying that the other person does not want to be your friend.... but, just don't say it. If you are recieving the news, just be quiet and listen. Don't ask questions... just say ok. Nothing you have to say will change it. The other person thought this out. Don't say too much, because when you are hurt, or mad..... you say stupid things. You won't mean what you say.... so save it. Thank the other person for being honest. Tell them "I understand".... even if you do not. Remember, this is not easy for them either....

    • ... When you lose a friend?

    There are many ways you can lose a friend... you can do something to hurt them, they can do something to hurt you, when you lose a girlfriend/boyfriend.... you are usually losing your best friend, but I am talking about losing a friend to death. Particularly, a best friend. I don't know if I even know how to handle this. I lost Ben about 2 years ago, and I have not even been close to closure. So, on this one... I am really looking for an answer. I think of him daily, and it usually hurts. I always think of the good things, not the bad. I always smile... I sometimes cry. Holidays are always the toughest.... I can only think how the family deals.... I used to see them every Thanksgiving and Christmas. It's hard. I have to think that God had a bigger plan for him, but I am not sure I believe that. I get mad sometimes. I sometimes feel like he took part of me with him... the best parts. I don't feel like I have said enough here, but I don't wanna talk about it anymore. Like I said, it hurts.


    I HAVE ADDED SOMEONE......
    I have added Alex to my blog, so he can post some stuff in English. Alt of you know him from my links on the side.... "The Bulgarians Page". Alot of you know him in person as well. Many of you have gone to his page to see that it is not in English! Although, occassionally he will post something we can read. Many of you have requested him to post in English, so I added him here.... and you will soon be able to read some stuff from Alex!



    Ok, I have only had this posted for a couple hours.... and I have recieved 3 emails and about 5 IMs asking me if I don't feel the same about FER as she feels about me? And some of you have said I better not have hurt her! Seems like some of you really like her.... as do I. Don't worry I feel the same about her today, as I have all along. I adore her! She is so beautiful, sweet, smart.... etc. The post was just in general.... with a little personal experience.

    posted by djshawn at 8:16 PM 3 People have told me what they think.... click here! Don't be scared.

    Thursday, November 17, 2005

    WHAT YOU SHOULD DO WHEN YOU LIKE HER.....

    posted by djshawn at 2:43 PM 3 People have told me what they think.... click here! Don't be scared.

    Party Pics......

    Click here to See Some of the PARTY PICS!!!!!!



    NEVERMIND THE PICS ARE TEMPORARILY UNAVAILABLE, I'LL EMAIL YOU WHEN THEY ARE UP!

    posted by djshawn at 10:58 AM 1 People have told me what they think.... click here! Don't be scared.

    Tuesday, November 15, 2005

    Randoms....

    Party

    As a said before, the party was really good. I am still waiting on the pics so I can make a real post. Stay tuned.......


    Football Picks

    I went 11-3 on my football picks this week. And Prince has been on a crazy winning streak lately... something like 24-3 over the last 3 weeks. Wow.


    Weight Loss

    I am formally challenging everyone to a weight loss contest. Not that any of us are fat, but we all have a few extra pounds. You know who you are... Prince, Shaff, Lauren, Murph, Irish, and myself... etc. etc. Let's take a 3 month period and see who can lose the most weight. I bet I can beat you all. I need to know your weight now, and I'll update your progress every week. We will all be better for this.... even though I know most of you are wimps and are scared to lose. Email me your current weight... mine is 230. Fatty.
    Any females that want to participate.... I will not post your beginning weight.... just how much you lost. I know it is a sensitive subject.


    Mistakes

    One of my friends recently made a big mistake and did something to hurt another friend. You will lose some friends over this, but understand that we have all made mistakes. We have all lost friends. A true friend would not abandon you, and a true friend will still be there. Understand this though... A real friend is allowed to be disappointed in you, and they are allowed to tell you exactly how they feel. We are always afraid to say how we feel, and a real friend is not. You messed up. As long as you know that you made a mistake and you learn a lesson from it you'll be ok. You are certainly gonna lose one friend, but you deserve that. You surely didn't consider that person a good friend anyway, based on your actions. As for me? I always put you up on a pedestal, you were perfect... I am mad and disappointed. But, you know what? I still love you, and always will. Learn from this.


    FER

    Everyone has been asking. Everyday. I don't have an answer for you. I am not sure what this is. I am not sure where it is going. I am not sure how she feels. As much as we talk, and as open as she has been with me... I don't ever know how she feels. I been trying to read her( it's a mistake I always make ), and I am not sure what to think. Most of you know that I am really sensitive to things most people overlook. Example? Ok, so FER had a wedding to go to this weekend in Vegas ( you know what happens there stays there ), and she left on Friday. I got to see her last Tuesday ( a whole week ago.... sigh ) when she came over to watch one of my favorite TV shows.... The Office. We also watched a great new show called Random 1. She came over because she knew that we would not see each other for a week ( I think I also whined a little bit ). She stayed longer than she planned to, and didn't seem to wanna leave. But, she had to.... and I walked her to her car and got the best kiss yet. She is a fantastic kisser, you know. So, she was leaving on Friday... I decided to get up early so I could talk to her... and she was pleasantly surprised. I told her to have a good time, stay away from the boys, and call me whenever. Well, whenever has not come yet......
    I should not be disappointed in this. But, I am. I just knew she was gonna call... I mean I knew she was gonna be busy, and I knew she was gonna be having so much fun.... but, she could not go all weekend without talking to me. You know why I knew this? She calls me everyday when she is here. Also, I knew I could not go the whole weekend without talking to her. No way. Well, I did. I don't know. I am crazy about this girl. I wish we would have gotten together last time, and stayed together. Maybe I am crazy.
    Anyway, watch The Office tonight... and, Random 1.


    Interview

    Well, as most of you know I have a job interview today.... Yay. Sarcasm. I am really trying to get into a non-profit organization, and it is not as easy as it seems. Hopefully, I will win the MegaMillions lottery tonight. 310 million dollars. $310,000,000. Say it out loud... it sounds so good.

    posted by djshawn at 7:26 AM 3 People have told me what they think.... click here! Don't be scared.

    Saturday, November 12, 2005

    The Party was Crazy.......

    I just wanted to let everyone know that the party was awesome!!! I will have a complete post tomorrow with pictures of some of you drunk fucks!!! I would do it now, but I am still recovering from our 3 day bender! Thank you for coming..... Prince, Shaff, Lauren, Bri, Vicki, Britt, Sara, Stoops, Steve, Ber, Jason, Karpenko, Tommy, Cassie, Kenny, Lindsay, Ramsey, Sandy, Ernest, Ernest 2, Herb, CJ, Jess,Stephanie, Kara, Amanda, Lori, Ethrees, Bulgarian, Adam, Fife, Frank, Amy, Anne Marie..... and whoever else I forgot to mention!
    Shawns' Diet for the Party Night
    • 2 Bud Lights in a can
    • 2 Captain and gingerales(Mostly Captain)
    • 4 CherryBombs
    • 2 JagerBombs
    • 3 Captain and Cokes(Mostly Captain)
    • 2 Shots of CrownRoyal
    • 2 Bud Light bottles
    • Perkins open face turkey sandwich at 3 am!

    Pics and details later!!!!!!!

    posted by djshawn at 11:13 PM 3 People have told me what they think.... click here! Don't be scared.

    Tuesday, November 08, 2005

    What I Like About You... You Really Know How to Dance!



    I am bored... so, I decided to tell you what I like about you.
    Click on each name and you will see something that reminds me of each person!

    Shaffer (Laurens Husband)- I like the fact that you are real. I like that you always have my back. I like the fact that you are so in Love with your wife. I like the fact that your kids, family and friends mean the world to you. I like all the stuff you know about cars.... since I know nothing. I like that you know all the words to every Eminem song. I like that you remind me of a hard-ass thug, but still you can be laid back. I like that whenever we go out.... we have a blast! I like the fact that you have been a good friend.

    Lauren (Shaffers Wife)- Just like your husband... I like that you are real. I like the fact that you hate girls.... lol. I like that you fight back. I like the fact that you Love your man so much. I like how you adore your kids. I like that I can make you laugh. As a matter of fact, I like your laugh. I like how bitchy you can be. I like when we all go out, cuz I like how much you can drink. I like the fact that we are friends. i like the fact that you like FER.

    "Prince"- I like that you have been a good friend through much shit. I like that you have the best pick-up lines ever. I like that you are obsessed with sports like me. I like that even though you don't have to... you go to college. I like the fact that you have more girlfriends than most girls do. I like that we have alot in common. I like that you can listen and give advice like no other. I like that you have been there.

    Brew- I like that we have been through so much in a friendship over ten years, and we still can manage to understand each other. I like that you can dance like no one else. I like that you can sing. I like that you can write. I like Laffy Taffy.... not. I like that you have found a woman that deserves you. I like that you have goals. I like that you have a big shoulder to lean on even though you may be 5' tall. Kidding. I like that you are the best basketball player that I ever played with. I like that you are the second best shortstop I know. LOL. I like everything you have taught me.

    Sara- I like that you could care less what people think about you. I like that you love to dance... best white girl dancer around. LOL. I like that you can drink like a fish. I like that you belch like a man. I like the way you smile. I like the way you frown. I like that you are so laid back. I like the way I imagine us being friends sometimes. I like that you showed that pole what was up. I like that you let me put this pic, and this pic, and this pic, and this pic on here!

    Ber- I like that we have been friends for awhile. I like that you act like a guy most of the time. I like your raunchy sense of humor. I like that you can eat more pills than anyone I know. I like that your eyes cross when you are fucked up. I like that you are fun.

    Bulgarian- I like that you are foreign. LOL. I like that you are care-free. I like that you don't need materialistic things in your life. I like that you scream into the phone. I like that you eat Feta with everything. I like that you are honest. I like that you love movies, but hate television. I like that you like alot of good music. I like that you take sexy pictures of yourself. LOL. I like knowing you. I like your goals, and dreams. I like that we are friends.

    "FER"- I like you. I could just leave it at that.... but, I can't. I like your smile. I like when you laugh so hard, you have to put the phone down. I like being able to make you laugh that hard. I like talking on the phone for hours about nothing with you. I like that you would rather go to Vegas than come to our B-day Party!!! Whatever. I like when you call me bastard. I like when you feed the dog. LOL. I like how "unique" up on rabbits. I like that we did not lose each other. I like thinking we never will. I like that you are really sweet. I like that you are really smart. I like that you are so cute... it lets you get away with calling me bastard.
    I like that you like me. Maybe that's your best quality. HAHA. I like that Lauren likes you.... thank God. I like to imagine that I can be what you want me to be. I like you. I think I always will.....
    I like that this pic, this pic, this pic, and this pic mean nothing to anyone other than us! Here I am babe... I got dressed up for you in this pic!

    posted by djshawn at 4:19 AM 5 People have told me what they think.... click here! Don't be scared.

    Saturday, November 05, 2005

    Birthdays come and Birthdays go....

    So, my long anticipated birthday has come and gone, even though I am tempted to celebrate my Birth for a week like some of my friends have done....lol. Let's recap my day..... I had some errands to run during the day, so that was fun.... and I had a date planned with a friend of mine... I have to admit she is much more than a friend to me, but I will refrain from putting a title on us, so not to jinx us. I am not quite sure how she would like me to refer her as.... so i don't want to put expectations there. It is safe to say everyone will be seeing much more of her for a long time. For those of you that met her last night... you know her name, and can see what a beautiful, sweet girl she is. For those of you who didn't meet her... hopefully you will soon. If you mean anything to me, you definitely will have a chance to meet her. I will refer to her as FER until you all know her. God knows last time I wrote someones name on here.... she had a panic attack. Anyways, FER took my to dinner for my Day, and got me a lovely gift (I Love It), then we decided to head up to the "11th Hour" in the dome to see some friends. I was quite surprised to see some of my old friends there as well! Kenny, who I grew up with and is quite possibly the baddest motherfucker I know, showed up with Steve. I used to run with these guys back in the day, and they got me in quite a bit a trouble back then.... I love them like family. Also, Cutty was there... I also ran with him in the day, and with him was an old friend Amanda. Prince was there of course, and he was wasted by the time I left. Shaff, and his wife Lauren were there... and they are the reason I stopped up for the night. Lauren and I did way too many shots.... she was really gone by the time I left. I tried to get her to fight a girl we both cannot stand, but she wasn't that drunk yet. I kept telling her to knock her out.... which would have been easy for you Lauren. Her time will come shortly I predict. (Aren't you all curious who the girl is?... I know you are and will gossip about it all week!). Shaff hung out with us all night, and we had a good time. I was really happy because Lauren "The hater of all girls", told me that she approved of FER!!! This is no small acheivement, largely because she hates all girls... ok, not all, just 97.9% of them. She says "Shawn, I like her... she is cute! Don't fuck it up." Lol. Good advice. Lauren likes to point out my terrible choice in girls over the last year, and she is 100% correct. None of them have been serious relationships, probably because I was just choosing them over lonliness. Lauren likes to call them "Ho bags". No comment. Anywho.... who else was there? Ber wished me a Happy B-day! Cassie wished a Happy Day. Big Murph also. Britt, Jess, Wendy, Kara, "name deleted" (LOL), and Sara were also there. None of whom said 2 words to me all night (heart breaks... lol). I take that back... Sara gave me a half-hearted hug and may have said Happy Birthday. Like I said before, you learn who is a friend, and who is fake as you go through life. One girl, whose name I am not to mention, told Lauren she is mad at me because I called her fake. Too bad... you are. I had a few emails from some friends that are coming to the big Party on NOV. 11th.(Read Below).

    I had a great night with you FER, and am glad you had fun too. I'll make sure March 4th rocks as well! Everyone should be as lucky as us. If everyone does not know... Me and FER talked briefly when I was DeeJaying at JayJays... we lost contact, and have recently found each other again. It's great. Like I said, everyone should be as lucky.....

    As far as the party goes... what should you expect? Well, Myself, Shaff, Lauren, Prince, Vicki and Bri will be wasted. It would probably be a bad idea to cause drama that night. Lol. Last time that happened.... well if you were there, you remember.... broken noses, hospital visits, etc. Armando will be dancing like a Mexican idiot on the floor, you should come just to see this. He is great, and full of energy. Speaking of dancing... I am tired of all you people who think you can dance! I must admit some of the girls can dance, but they have different equipment. I am bringing some of my old crew... Brew, Curtis, Cutty, Pat, maybe even break dancing Gary.... and the beautiful Jax may be there.... we used to go to clubs just to dance. We will see whats up.... Hey Brew and Curtis, don't you wish Benny was still here? He may have been the worst dancer ever, but he didn't know. Quite frankly, I don't think he would have cared.... and neither did we.(RIP).... Brew might be the best dancer I know, and has taught me alot. Period. And ladies beware, Curtis may be the prettiest thing you have ever seen. And he knows it. Even though it's funny cuz BDG thinks he is both. LOL. Keep your shirt on Gary! Let's see... the crazy Bulgarian will be there, and if we are lucky enough.... Ethrees will join us. Wish I could get a hold of Farsetti! And I wish B-Randon was here and not 'Bama! Alot of old friends and alot of new..... details below.... peace!
    There seem to be alot of Birthdays in November. I am not sure of the exact dates, but the following people are celebrating birthdays this month..... Me, Shaff, Prince, Armando, and Bri..... So myself and Shaffer asked Mike from the "11th Hour Night Club" (in the Dome) if we could throw a party there. He agreed so here are the details...

    November Birthday Smash
    @ "11th hour in the Dome"
    Friday November 11th, 11pm
    (click here for directions)
    There is a theme.... A Luau... what is that? Well, it is a Hawaiin themed party.... you know grass skirts, leis, hawaiin shirts, maybe a coconut bra. It is going to be a wild drunken night and everyone that is reading this is invited, and you can bring as many friends as you would like. 18 and over, and no underage drinking. The party ends when it ends.

    Prince, Shaff and Bri.... you are in charge of getting the whole West crew to join us.

    posted by djshawn at 5:10 AM 2 People have told me what they think.... click here! Don't be scared.

    Friday, November 04, 2005

    It's my Birthday.....



    Well it is officially now my BIRTHDAY..... and no one has noticed so far, and I am guessing it will be a rather uneventful day. YAY for my BIRTHDAY!!!!!

    My Birthday Wishlist
    1. A Puppy
    2. Portable MP3 Player
    3. Sex with Carmen Electra
    4. Sex with Carmen Electra
    5. Sex with Carmen Electra
    6. Make out with Coffee Princess
    Ok, so now it is 3:30am... and I have had two people acknowledge my Birthday. Thank you FER... for a great birthday so far. I can't wait 'til tomorrow, and I am so happy I got to see you this morning... it has been so long since the last time, but I was right when I remembered something from back in the day. This may be one of the best birthdays I can remember.... guess we will see tomorrow. Thank you for.... I don't know..... being you. Have fun at the chinchilla farm... and please make sure you shower before I see you.... or we could just conserve water and........ well use your imagination.


    PARTY ANNOUNCEMENT

    There seem to be alot of Birthdays in November. I am not sure of the exact dates, but the following people are celebrating birthdays this month..... Me, Shaff, Prince, Armando, and Bri..... So myself and Shaffer asked Mike from the "11th Hour Night Club" (in the Dome) if we caould throw a party there. He agreed so here are the details...

    November Birthday Smash
    @ "11th hour in the Dome"
    Friday November 11th, 11pm
    (click here for directions)
    There is a theme.... A Luau... what is that? Well, it is a Hawaiin themed party.... you know grass skirts, leis, hawaiin shirts, maybe a coconut bra. It is going to be a wild drunken night and everyone that is reading this is invited, and you can bring as many friends as you would like. 18 and over, and no underage drinking. The party ends when it ends.

    Prince, Shaff and Bri.... you are in charge of getting the whole West crew to join us.

    posted by djshawn at 12:46 AM 5 People have told me what they think.... click here! Don't be scared.

    Wednesday, November 02, 2005

    4 Companies and Igloos....

    I have a friend that has a great theory that I would like to share with the rest of you.... this theory may change the world. The basis of said theory is that we could survive as a society with the presence of merely 4 companies in our world. Make sure to check out the links......
    1. Walmart- Think about it. What can't you get at this place? It is open 24 hours a day, and it surely is a cultural gemstone. Also, their closest competitor, Target has yearly profits of less than half of the great store. Imagine your competition not even being competitive!
    2. Starbucks- There are 275 store is New York City alone! That is crazy. And even crazier is in some locations you can actually see another location across the street!! Even in Japan, where they don't care for coffee ( they prefer tea ), Starbucks has been successful( even after Dunkin' Donuts failed ).
    3. Google- This one I can't explain too much. I mean it is a great search engine... If you can't find it on Google, you are an idiot. I was surprised when I searched for my own name.... I found my profile. Try your name!
    4. China- This one I love!!! Last time I checked China was not a company, but they might as well be. They make everything. In fact I am sure something that you are touching right now was made in China. No? Well, I am uncomfortable knowing you are standing naked reading this! A company of a billion people... wow, and I bet they would all love to shop at Walmart, drink Starbucks coffee ( even though if I drink coffee, it's always from Raptis Coffee.... Starbucks can't touch it ), and Google their own names!
    I want to thank FER for this great idea, and I love it!!! I also want to get into the Igloo (egloo) building. I cannot wait. I even found a site that teaches you how to build Igloos!!!! Click here to see the amazing process!

    Also here is a great anti-Starbucks website.

    Also, a anti-Walmart website.

    Meet Mr. Anti-Google.
    There seems to be an anti site for everything.....



    Make sure you visit Raptis Coffee, and check out the great coffee portraits.... can Starbucks offer that.... I think not!!!


    On a sidenote.... Don't you love when you can talk on the phone for hours with someone.... about nothing? It's great. You amaze me......

    posted by djshawn at 6:05 AM 2 People have told me what they think.... click here! Don't be scared.

    Tuesday, November 01, 2005

    Chapter 4... Growing up... Fast

    This story is going to take a few days, maybe weeks.... I will have all the chapters in this blue, so you can navigate.


    ...(con't).... So, I had a different childhood from most of my friends. I lived with my alcoholic father and his mother for a couple years in a very small trailer. I hardly ever got to see my mother and sister, and I did not understand this very much. I was not too far away ( it was a 20 minute drive ), and I thought for a long time that my mother did not want to see me. She assures me that this was not the case, and has tried to convince me that my father did not want to bring me to see her. I am not sure what the truth is to this day. Anyways, after a couple of years, my father decided that he did not want to be a refridgerator repair man anymore and he bought the local bar from a friend of his. It was called "The Hitching Post", and it got this name from when there were no cars, and horses were the way of transportation. You would "hitch" you horse to a "post" outside the bar. (It is now called "Shevies") It was a small bar in the center of town, in between the grocery store and the car dealership, and almost every local would drown their sorrows there, so there was a good business opportunity in the idea. Vienna is a drinking town, that is for sure. My dad was actually a good businessman, and he decided to make some changes. He totally gave the inside of the bar an overhaul, he added a pavillion in the back, and tried to clean up the crowd. He also added a "Brothers Pizza Shop" next door in a empty storage space. He did not own "Brothers", but he charged a nice rent. I ate there for free daily! The crowd was very big, and it consisted of mostly regulars. He had to be making money hand over fist. I think to own a bar, you have to trust the people that worked there.... he did. The workers were like family to me.... I mean they had to be because my dad was always drunk, or too busy with some bar fly. I do have to admit that he did do alot of good things with his money. He donated alot of money to the MDA and to MS organizations... he also sponsered just about every event in town. He was never a terrible guy... just a terrible father. I learned to play pool out of boredom, and it was not long before I was beating the adults on a regular basis. People would often be sitting at the bar and ask "So, where is this kid that plays pool so well?" I would be around somewhere, and my dad would come find me to play some drunk. "Listen son, I have $100 on this game... so do not lose." What pressure. I would rarely lose... but saw no money. LOL. I would do my homework at the bar, while my dad got trashed. I can't even remember how many times I got home at 3 am. I was 12! There were a couple of families that took me in as there own, usually it was the mother that would make me come to their house after school, do my homework, eat a good meal.... have some structure. It was nice not having to see miserable people drinking all day, while they complained about their lives. It was also nice having someone care about me, it was nice having "brothers" and "sisters". They were not the most normal families, but I want to thank Dorraine Bernhard and her sons Brandon, Justin and Aaron.... Peggy and Tom(RIP) Totten and their kids Jamie and Kris.... and Joe McNerney(RIP) and his sons Sean and Brendan(RIP). Sigh.... Brendan.... I guess this calls for a sidenote, so I will tell you about Brendan "Benny" McNerney.....( con't ).....

    PICTURES OF VIENNA

    "Shevies" ( formerly "The Hitching Post" )

    IGA ( formerly SuperDuper)

    Drive Thru

    DairyMart

    Airport

    Trailer Park


    STINES Page STINES Page STINES Page STINES Page STINES Page STINES Page STINES Page STINES Page STINES Page STINES Page STINES Page STINES PageSTINES Page

    Oh yeah.... I also wanted to mention that I ran into an old friend of mine at "The Dome" this weekend, and I could not be happier. And for the record, you stopped calling me.... I would never do something like that. And I won't do it again..... lol, that makes no sense. Cancel the trip to Vegas.... it's my 25th Birthday(wink)! I miss you already..... you hang up.... no you.... no you.... 1,2,3.......Smile! I can't believe you just said that.... but "omlette" this one slide.
    Click Here to see Stines great site on everything Vienna.... A hilarious and sad site!!!! Click Here to see all kind of Vienna stuff!!!!!!

    posted by djshawn at 5:04 AM 2 People have told me what they think.... click here! Don't be scared.

    Wednesday, October 26, 2005

    I Love Music.... This Ain't Music.....

    Ok, anyone who knows me(everybody claims they know me!!), knows that I was a Dj in a pretty popular club in this area for a while. I was known to play songs before they became "popular"... I had a friend on-line in New York who would send me new tracks, and I was a member of a great on-line Deejay club. I always had the hot shit first. Sometimes I would pick songs that never made it, but mostly I had a good ear for picking good music. If I heard a song that I hated, I would not play it until it became a hit, and I had to play it then because of the crowd. Anyways, this new song out now called "Laffy Taffy" really pisses me off. It is just another "song" about nothing with a terrible video game sounding track in the background, a stolen hook from New Edition (Candy Girl), and the worst lyrics ever. There is a link below to "Laffy Taffy" by D4L... check it out. Also check out the lyrics, and the song they stole from. I urge you to change the station when you hear this song.

    "Laffy Taffy" video by D4L.... Click Here!

    Click here for the lyrics!

    And listen to "Candy Girl" by the greatest RnB group ever... New Edition. Click Here!

    New Edition home page here!

    And for now on I want to be known as Jolly Rancher because I stay so hard... you can suck me forever! Watermelon is the best!

    posted by djshawn at 11:39 PM 7 People have told me what they think.... click here! Don't be scared.

    Tuesday, October 25, 2005

    Comments on comments......

    Alright. Let's get a few things straight. This is my website, and I will write about whatever I want. Plain and simple. If that bothers you, or you don't like me.... PLEASE CLICK HERE. But, I will say this.... if you do not want your name on here, just tell me. I'll take it off. Just like I did for someone below. It's not a big deal. I have never(and will never) put anyones personal business on here. I spare the details. I am not here to bad mouth anyone, even if some people want to bad mouth me in the comments section. It's cool if you don't like me, you don't have to. But, if you want to leave a comment.... and if it's really the way you feel.... leave your name. Why hide if you are just expressing how you feel? Don't be anonymous. I Ain't Mad At Ya!!!click here!

    So, let me share some of the comments with you, and give you my response.

    Shawn.... you are completely pathetic and you need to get over this (name deleted) situation... Don't mean to be so harsh, but she doesn't really care...
    She really doesn't appreciate you spilling her business out there like that...... "W"


    Ok, well first I deleted the name of the person who left this comment (even though she left her name). I don't mind the advice, but this (name deleted) situation was over weeks prior to you leaving this message. I don't mind you being "harsh", but I don't think that you were being "harsh" to me. I think a little ignorant when you call people names. But, you are entitled to your opinion. And her business was never out there. I just said how I felt about her, and that she was a great girl. But, nonetheless... I took her name out.... and I have spoken to her about it as well. She agreed that I really didn't say anything that was personal. And I think she can speak for herself. As for you.... I have never had anything against you, and never will. I know you talk alot of bad shit about me..... opinions are like assholes, everyone has one. Thanks for yours, and I wish you the best.

    Come on are you for real, maybe your ex's should read and respond, I thought you were better than this...u r not emotional like this Just be yourself and don't try to impress strangers, U A PLAYA!

    Ok, well I am not sure who left this one (Anonymous). But, I don't know why my ex's should read this, but if they did.... I think they all would tell you that I am very emotional in my personal life. So, this tells me that you are not close to me. I don't get real close to people, that way they can't see that I am really a mess. It would be impossible to not be.... see, I been through alot. I never had a real good home life, and I was beat so many times by my father that it would make you sick. My Grandpa tried to raise me, and he died when I was 16. He was like my father, so imagine your father dying when you were 16. My first love left me for another, and I lost it.... got some charges pressed on me.... and lost a real good scholarship because of it. My best friend since I was 10 got luekemia, and went into a coma when he was 25. I used to visit him every Wednesday... one time I showed up and they told me he died. My best friend. And I been through some shit since then. So please don't act like you know me.... If you can go through my life and not be emotional.... you are better than me. As far as being myself.... I am. I will admit you probably don't know the real me, because I never let you in. Not necessarily because I didn't like you.... probably was just scared to let you close to me. I have that problem. And I never was a playa.... just a flirt. Thanks for your opinion.

    I am one of your ex's and i know that you are emotional. Sweet and emotional. Come on Shawn, you can do better than that girl. You have to let her go. If she truly wanted to be with you, she wouldn't hesitate. Sometimes i even kick myself for letting you go....

    Well, this one was anonymous as well so..... I have no idea who it is. I have had few ex's so the list is short. Anyway, just as I said... my ex's will tell you I am emotional... and I am not saying that is a good thing. I have let her go weeks ago, so this situation is over. And you are right she would not have hesitated. By the way, you should never have regrets about letting someone go. I guess it wasn't meant to be. We are both probably different people now... people change. If you ever regret it enough to see if it could work again... don't be shy. You never know. I only really hate one ex, and I know it ain't you. Thanks again for the kind words.

    Shawn,Ok you know that your past doesn't go along with these feelings for anyone who knows you can tell that this is not true...i mean her age is within your range, but she is worth more than being with you...maybe you should try being with someone your own age...It is not her fault that she wants to have a life and experience other things besides you, at her age she should not have to worry about making anyone happy but herself, leave her alone . For those of you reading this and don't understand what I am talking about...he tells alot of younger girls that he LOVES them and THEY ARE THE ONLY ONE and well the list does go on, Shawn some advice let it go and get someone your age that wants to settle down and has seen more and done more in life than her,I know the way you have treated some of your ex's and it's not that great so maybe (YOU SHOULD BE THE ONE READING THOSE MAGAZINES FOR SOME ADVICE), they do help out.

    This is my favorite... anonymous again. You assume you know my past.... you probably have known me less than two years, since thats when I moved back here. And I have no ex's in that time.... zero. And I have told one girl that I loved her in that time. I will not give her name, but she knows who she is. And I consider her a friend now. And she also knows that it was a mistake, I really didn't mean it. I had a big crush on her, and I was lonely at the time. I only could see that she was a great girl, and she would be a great girl to be with. That's all. And it was not the girl in my previous post. As far as it being a younger girl.... you act like I am 40 years old. I am 27.... wow. I apologize to all the girls that are my age that I never asked out. I do apologize. I am sorry that I have no desire to be with someone that has an ex-husband, or four kids with three different babies daddies. I don't mind kids, as a matter of fact.... I love them. I have dated some girls with a kid. Mostly a young kid.... not a twelve year old. I also do want to start my own family as well. So I am attracted to girls younger tham me.... so what. They seem to be the sweetest, and they haven't slept with half the county. As far as your opinion that age does matter.... Age did not matter when my adult father used to beat the shit out of me.... for no reason. Age did not matter when my uncle died of brain cancer, leaving a wife and two young children, Age did not matter when I was living on my own at 16, and Age did not seem to matter when my best friend died when he was 25.... he was healthy all his life. Age doesn't matter to all these girls my age around here.... they all have kids when they are in their teens or early twenties. God, knows they were not ready.... but they dealt with it. Age matters nothing to me.... I only care if you are a good person. Thanks for the advice on the magazines.... I'll look into it.

    I am not truly one of Shawn's ex's, but I have had a relationship with him. He is nice enough. He never treated me wrongly. As a matter of fact, i kept bouncing back and forth between him and my ex. He was always supportive of my decision, and even though it hurt him.... he stayed my friend. I love him, and I am proud of him for expressing his feelings. He is very sensitive, and would give you the shirt off his back. And don't let him make you think he doesn't like kids.... I have a young one that he adores.


    Lol, I think I know who this is. Well, thank you baby.... and I do adore your little one.

    So there are some of the comments. I find it amazing that most of these people have to be anonymous. I guess it's ok. The things I do mind are mostly guys that like to talk it up behind my back. Listen fellas, I am sure I always treated you fairly.... but if you do have a problem.... be a man, and step up... 3461 Dunstan Dr. is where you can find me. Click here for directions.

    Last Night.....
    So, last night was cool. Nothing special, just a few people came over to watch the game. I have pretty much stayed to myself lately, and as I once said... I felt most of my friends have turned there backs on me. So, last night made me feel better. I been helping The Prince bet on some football games, and we were very interested in the outcome of the game last night. We took Atlanta -8, and over 40pts. Won Both!!!!! Yay Prince!! Big Money!!!!

    The other people that came over were a surprise. An old friend, and one of her friends. I only met her other friend once, but she seemed really cool. Everything was chill. Alot of cigerettes were smoked, and alot of beers consumed(mostly by the same person).... One other person was gonna come, but decided that she would be uncomfortable.... and is probably worried that I may be upset with her. I am not, for the record, and you are welcome anytime. I told you that when I called you last night.

    And shut the refridgerator.... please. I know it's tricky. LOL.

    posted by djshawn at 6:34 PM 2 People have told me what they think.... click here! Don't be scared.

    Thursday, October 20, 2005

    I'll Do Me, You Do You...

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    My NFL picks... Kansas City 24 Miami 10, Detroit 17 Cleveland 7, Indy 40 Houston 13, St. Louis 27 New Orleans 10, San Diego 24 Philly 21, Green Bay 17 Minnesota 10, Pittsburgh 21 Cincy 13, Washington 17 San Fran 14 Seattle 27 Dallas 24, Buffalo 21 Oakland 13, Tennessee 10 Arizona 7, Baltimore 16 Chicago 6, Denver 17 NY giants 10, Atlanta 27 NY Jets 13


    I'll Do Me, You Do You.............

    I don't care what you think. I don't care how you feel about it. I don't care about what you want me to do, how you want me to feel, or how you see me. I am me. If you don't like what you see... walk away. I don't care. I want to be me, and dammit I am going to do just that. I need to be happy and satisfied with me. Shit, I don't even know me. Who am I? I am me. I don't care about material things. Money is a necessary thing.... and I only want enough to let me live. I am just an ordinary person wanting to be happy, wanting to be loved. I guess that's why it is so hard to find true love without being fake. It's true. You want someone to love you so bad that you do things that aren't you. You finally get them to love you, and a year or two later it is over because you get comfortable, and you show your true colors. Oh, you never though about it that way? The truth hurts. So quit telling me I should do this, I should buy that, I should feel this.... I'll do me, You do you.

    Ever since I started feeling this way I have been quite lonely. This makes me wonder who are really friends of mine. Who is fake, who is real? I haven't had a real relationship in a while, and it's getting old. Do I really need to be something other than myself to be accepted? To be loved? Let me see... my parents don't love me, my extended family doesn't love me, my friends don't love me, I have no potential relationship on the horizon, and I don't really believe that I love myself. Maybe I am just unlovable. I mean I love others, and when I mean love... I mean I would do anything for them. ANYTHING. I love my Mom(even though she may not know it), I love my sister( her ex-boyfriend learned this the hard way last week), I love my friends... Reed, Shaf, Joe, Mags, Brew, Brandon, Kev, Lauren, Alex... and a certain girl that will remain nameless. You know who you are, even though you were never ready to hear it (and no it's not the girl I previously wrote about ). These are people that I would sacrifice anything for. Some of them do not feel the same, in fact, I think none of them do.

    Don't think that I am looking for any kind of sympathy here. I am used to this life that I have made for myself. I don't let people get close to me anymore because I am scared of being hurt (thanks dad). Well whatever..............

    posted by djshawn at 7:45 PM 5 People have told me what they think.... click here! Don't be scared.

    Wednesday, October 19, 2005

    Things That Make Me Mad....

    • The Vikings' Love Boat... Ok, I know most of you have read about this somewhere. The Minnesota Vikings star players rented two boats for the weekend to party, and they had plenty of booze and girls with them. So far, so good. While on this boat they got drunk and basically had a big orgy, and they were trying to get the boat staff to join the ruckus. When they refused, the players basically started treating them like shit. These players are getting out of control. I mean they already make an absurd amount of money playing a game. They all seem to be the same... Baseball, Basketball, Football, Hockey... etc. Rapists, murderers, theifs, wife beaters, gamblers.... etc. Time to get a grip.
    • Condelleza Rice... Just recently Condi was on Meet The Press to discuss our troops in Iraq, and she decided to try to legitimize the war by stating that there were "weapons of mass destruction". Sigh. We have to stop fooling people with this notion! I know that we got this information from British intelligence, and we were worried about the WMDs. We were there for oil, power, and revenge. Oil prices are through the roof, we have no power but we lose many lives every week in a country that still hates us. I guess the revenge part worked.
    • Dr. Phil... Do I need to explain this one? He says great things like "You don't need a lucky rabbit's foot to shave a weasel". Here is a great website on Dr. Phil.

    posted by djshawn at 6:40 PM 3 People have told me what they think.... click here! Don't be scared.

    Thursday, October 13, 2005

    Chapter 3: In a Van Down by the River....

    My baseball picks are..... Astros' in 7..... Angels in 6....My baseball picks are..... Astros' in 7..... Angels in 6....My baseball picks are..... Astros' in 7..... Angels in 6....My baseball picks are..... Astros' in 7..... Angels in 6....My baseball picks are..... Astros' in 7..... Angels in 6

    This story is going to take a few days, maybe weeks.... I will have all the chapters in this blue, so you can navigate.


    .... (con't ).... Anyways, school wasn't bad and the kids were nice enough for a while. You see, I guess you can't be popular if you don't have all the coolest clothes, brand name shoes, or the cool TrapperKeeper! I guess I took some of this stuff for granted when I lived with my mom. Not that I had much more when I was living with her, but it seemed like alot now. My haircut was always a couple of weeks overdue, and I know that may seem like a small thing , but kids are brutal. I was pretty smart in school, but my grades were not the greatest. See, my father could care less if I had homework, or a test the next day. I thought it was great. On the weekends, instead of playing with my friends, I would be going to work with my father in the van. Oh, the van. It was a 1980 Chevy van, painted primer grey, had no windows in the back. and was full of junk. I can't even explain how loud it was.... you couldn't even hear the 8-Track playing. It didn't really help my popularity when he would pick me up in this beast. After work, we would head to the bar for a few drinks. I would get my fill of pop, but I bet if I asked for a cocktail, I would have no problem getting one. My father would probably be proud of me if I did, you know.... put a little hair on my chest. We lived in a two bedroom trailer in the "Nice" trailer park in town. It gets better.... we lived in this trailer with my grandmother, his mother. Between the two of them, they smoked about four packs of cheap cigarettes a day. She was a miserable woman ( I loved her dearly ), and he was always drunk and bitchin' about something. It was joy. Oh yeah, so back to the two bedrooms. One for my him and one for her. Where did I sleep you ask? Good question. I slept on the floor in the living room, which was always occupied with one of them watching TV until at least midnight. I got lots of sleep, as you can imagine. . . . . .( con't )

    posted by djshawn at 5:47 PM 3 People have told me what they think.... click here! Don't be scared.

    Tuesday, October 11, 2005

    Chapter 2- The Grass isn't Greener...

    This story is going to take a few days, maybe weeks.... I will have all the chapters in this blue, so you can navigate.


    ......( con't ) It's not like things were bad at my moms' place, actually, in hindsight, it was pretty good. At the time I did not like it very much because of my stepfather. He wasn't a terrible guy, but he and my mom had a daughter together and she was the princess. She was treated so much different than me. I was like the bastard child that he had to take care of, and she was the legitimate child that he loved. ( Listen, for the record, I am sorry my real dad was irresponsible, and I am sorry you had to take care of his child.... I never expected you to love me, but I was surprised that you didn't.) So, anyways, I figured now that my real father was back, I could get out. I had spent enough weekends with him, I knew how it would be. I was nine, what did I know? I moved after the fourth grade. There were no tears from my mother, and I can't remember my stepfather caring too much. My five year old sister cried. For the summer it was pretty much how I described it before, baseball, greasy food, bars, video games. It was a kids dream. We also went camping alot with people from the bar, and now that I remember... it was mostly single dads with their kids for the weekend. My dad knew a guy that owned a lake back in the woods. It was a lot of good food, alot of beer, horseshoes, swimming and just lounging. It was just perfect.

    As summer came to an end, I had to prepare to go to a new school with all new kids. It wouldn't be too bad, I already knew alot of the boys from playing little league. I wasn't very nervous about it. I was more concerned about getting school clothes and supplies. I grew out of most of my clothes from the previous year, and needed quite a few new things. My dad was not interested in spending the money on silly things like school supplies and such. He had to save his money for the bar. I didn't understand it at the time, but he was an alcholholic. He wasn't an angry drunk, and he could hold his own in the drinking department. I eventually got the bare essentials for school, and I was ready to start making new friends. I did miss my other friends alot. Especially Matt, Chad, and Billy. And I had a big crush on this girl named Amy... I would definitly miss her.... I had no idea what the future would hold for her........( con't )





    posted by djshawn at 5:28 AM 7 People have told me what they think.... click here! Don't be scared.

    Monday, October 10, 2005

    Chapter 1- You Ever Wonder.....

    This story is going to take a few days, maybe weeks.... I will have all the chapters in this blue, so you can navigate.

    You ever wonder if one of your parents ever really loved you? I mean sometimes they kind of have to act like they do, but do they really?

    I never really knew my father. I lived with him for 6 years. Wait, these two statements don't go together, do they? Well, I never knew my father before I was ten years old... or, at least, I don't remember him. I don't remember most of my early childhood, and quite frankly I don't want to remember it. I have been told that I probably am supressing those memories, because they are painful and unpleasant. So, they can stay suppressed, because if they are anything like the stuff I do remember.... No good.

    When my father moved back to Ohio from Texas, my mother told me "Your father has started paying me child support again( he owed over $10,000 ), and you will be spending every other weekend with him." Oh no I wouldn't.... I didn't even know this man. Didn't she tell me not to talk to strangers? She continued... "He'll be here in an hour, go pack a bag." I was not happy, but I decided to give him a chance. He picked me up, and I was curious about where we would be going. We were going to work. He was a refridgerator repair man, and I got to accompany him on his jobs, and sit in the van. Fun. When we were done, we would go to a bar. I was nine, sitting at a bar with a bunch of people who hated their lives. But, it was fun.... soft drinks, greasy food, and video games. I got to be by myself.... roam around and try to get into trouble.... a kids dream. Somehow we decided that I was good at sports, and since it was baseball season.... he enrolled me in little league. I think it was just a place to drop me off.... the fields were right by the bar. In my first game, I hit a homerun and played well in the field. When he heard this... he became interested and started helping coaching. He was a great athlete in his day, I been told... and he was actually proud of me. I was having so much fun... Baseball, bars, junk food, video games.... did I mention bars? I decided it was so much fun, I asked if I could move in with him. My mom didn't like the idea, but after awhile she gave in. That would be the worst mistake I ever made........... (To be con't. )





    posted by djshawn at 7:16 PM 1 People have told me what they think.... click here! Don't be scared.

    "It's Not Over "til It's Over".... Ok, It's Over!

    "I am a virgin.... I am just not very good at it." -Ramada in "Hot Shots"

    Ok, so for those who have been following the (name deleted) situation ( see below ), It's over. Oh well..... I don't want to talk about it now, maybe I'll post it later.

    I don't think I did so great on my football picks... maybe 50%.

    FILLER......

    Propa use of words:
    1. Hotel - I gave my girlfriend crabs, and the ho tel everybody.
    2. Dictate - My girlfriend say my dictate good
    3. Israel - Tito try to sell me a Rolex. I say, "Man, it look fake." He say, "Bull****, that watch israel".
    4. Undermine - There's a fine lookin' ho living in the apartment undermine.
    5. Acoustic - When I was little, my uncle bought me acoustic and took me to the poolhall.
    6. Iraq - When we got to the poolhall, I tol' my uncle iraq, you break.
    7.Fortify - I axed this ho on da street, "how much?" she say "fortify."
    8. Income - I just got in bed wif da ho and income my wife.
    9. Omelette - I should pop yo ass fo what you jus did, but omelette dis one slide.

    Self-test questions:

    1. How Do You Catch a Unique Rabbit?
    Unique Up On It.

    2. How Do You Catch a Tame Rabbit?
    Tame Way, Unique Up On It.

    3. What Do You Call Cheese That Isn't Yours?
    Nacho Cheese.

    You ever want to just pack up and move.... start over somewhere new? Ok, sorry this post sucks..... new and impressive one within 24 hours, I promise.

    Putt-Putt Rules.... Entertain yourself! Click Here!

    posted by djshawn at 12:19 AM 6 People have told me what they think.... click here! Don't be scared.

    Sunday, October 09, 2005

    You Have To Read This....

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    I have a good friend(and roommate) that is from Bulgaria. He has a blog, and he is why I got started blogging. Most of his posts are in Bulgarian, but occassionally he posts in English. This is one of those times. Instead of me posting tonight, I have decided to send you there to read and comment on a great post.

    I appreciate all the people that have visited me... and I am surprised by all the emails I have recieved telling me that they look foward to my posts nightly... It seems that, just in a few days, I have reached 100 people per day! That amazes me... and as you tell your friends, it grows daily. Thank You!!!

    Click Here to read Alexs' post... and tell him I sent you!!! Click Here to read Alexs' post... and tell him I sent you!!! Click Here to read Alexs' post... and tell him I sent you!!! Click Here to read Alexs' post... and tell him I sent you!!! Click Here to read Alexs' post... and tell him I sent you!!! Click Here to read Alexs' post... and tell him I sent you!!! Click Here to read Alexs' post... and tell him I sent you!!! Aren't you thirsty? I am!

    posted by djshawn at 4:31 AM 11 People have told me what they think.... click here! Don't be scared.

    Saturday, October 08, 2005

    I Feel Sorry for the Perfect Ones...

    Feeling screwed up in a screwed up place, in a screwed up time, does not mean that you are screwed up.- Mark in "Pump up the Volume"

      The Perfect Ones....
    per·fect (pûrfkt)
    adj.

    1. Lacking nothing essential to the whole; complete of its nature or kind.
    2. Being without defect or blemish: a perfect specimen.
    3. Thoroughly skilled or talented in a certain field or area; proficient.
    4. Completely suited for a particular purpose or situation: She was the perfect actress for the part.
      1. Completely corresponding to a description, standard, or type: a perfect circle; a perfect gentleman.
      2. Accurately reproducing an original: a perfect copy of the painting.
    6. Complete; thorough; utter: a perfect fool.
    7. Pure; undiluted; unmixed: perfect red.
    8. Excellent and delightful in all respects: a perfect day.
    We have all called someone "perfect". I don't think anyone really means it in its accurate definition, but we have all said it. Then again, should it really have a definition when we use it in this way? I mean, can't perfect be in the eye of the beholder? You know, just like beauty. I guess for the sake of this post.... the answer is "NO".

    I think the biggest problem with calling someone perfect is that they may start believing it. And, that brings us to a pivital question... If you are perfect, can you ever do anything wrong? I mean, you would not be perfect if you could be wrong. That would be imperfect. Perfect is ugly to me. Call me crazy, but your imperfections are what make you beautiful. So, let's get this straight... Perfect=Ugly.... Imperfect=Beautiful. Guess I could never write for one of those Glamour magazines.

    Let's look at this a little more closely, shall we? I have a friend that dates this girl that we'll call Amy. She is absolutely beautiful. She is a sweet girl that doesn't seem to have a care in the world. Why, you ask? Because he calls her perfect all the time, not only to his friends, but to her as well. I can't say that i haven't done this myself, but let me warn you.... You tell her that she is perfect too many times and, she will believe it. And Amy does. She gets everything her way, everytime. It could be something as innocent as where to go for dinner( I swear, if he was allergic to seafood, and she wanted to go to Red Lobster... they would go). It also can be something as serious as where he is going to work. Most importantly, she can do nothing wrong. She lies, cheats and probably murders... and she bats her little eyes, cries and screams out " I am sorry I am not perfect!" This would be a perfect time to tell her she is right. I mean, you don't have to be mean about it.... "Baby, no one is perfect", or, "I know you aren't perfect, that's why I love you". But no, what does he say? "Baby, don't say that.... you are perfect". And God forbid that he does something wrong! He will hear about it forever, and pay for it dearly. This has taken a toll and, he no longer thinks she is the one. He is stuck. And so miserable.

    Ladies, stop trying to be perfect. We love you because you are not. We love you because you are different from the next. You are special. Unique. Quit reading those stupid magazines that are preaching that you need to be a certain way. I will tell you now, if you think you are perfect... I feel sorry for you. You are going to be alone for a long time. Or, even better, you are going to be with someone that hates you... but, at least he tells you that you are perfect.

    For the girls that know they are not perfect... good for you. Can I give some advice to you, too? Well, I am gonna anyway. When your man makes a mistake, no matter how small or how big... Forgive him. Give him another chance. You know you are not perfect already, now you need to realize that he isn't either. We are all human. We make mistakes. We have flaws. You know deep in your heart if he loves you. You know if he means well. If you know these things, and treat each other the same... you'll be happy. You'll be loved.





    posted by djshawn at 1:15 AM 11 People have told me what they think.... click here! Don't be scared.

    Well, She never called......


    Maybe my phone is broke..... Yeah, that's it! Damn phone!

    posted by djshawn at 12:39 AM 1 People have told me what they think.... click here! Don't be scared.

    Thursday, October 06, 2005

    Should I stay or should I go.......

    Ok, well I am up again at 5:30 am.... big surprise? I can't sleep. I waited tonight for her call, and waited a little longer to see if she would logon to AIM. Nada. I have gotten a few comments on my previous post, and all have good points. I decided to go with the majority... the only problem I ran into is 3 people say chase her, and 3 say let it go. Can you guess which one were from men, and which from women? C'mon people, help me out.... I need more comments and advice. SEE BELOW.

    Oh yeah... if you want to see my ugly ass, click here..... and gimme a 10! (P.S. It's not a picture of my ass.... I promise! )

    posted by djshawn at 5:34 AM 11 People have told me what they think.... click here! Don't be scared.

    Wednesday, October 05, 2005

    Title has been deleted due to subjects request

    This part has been deleted at request of the subject. Sorry.

    Why does she have me up at this absurd time? She doesn't even know I am up, she doesn't know how I feel, she doesn't know what she wants. And there you have it...

    Let me explain a little bit, and maybe someone out there can tell me what to do...

    I care about this girl an awful lot, I've told her this a time or two, and I would do about anything for her. We started off very friend-like, nothing serious at all, and we both had reasons for being weary and cautious. We both been hurt before, so there was a constant worry of being hurt again. I would drive to her house after a long day of work, sit on an opposite couch and watch a movie, or just sit and talk while watching TV. It was kinda odd and uncomfortable for a while, but there was nowhere I'd rather be. We went to the movies a couple of times, went to see a ballgame... nothing major, but good times. See I had to be careful, I could not afford to get hurt again this soon. I was afraid. Once and awhile, she would ask what we were... I never had an answer. I was on may way to her house one night, and she called me in tears and told me it was not a good night for me to come over. Her ex-boyfriend called her, and he was with another girl. I knew how she was feeling, so instead of going home... I stopped and got her some flowers and took them to her. I could tell she been crying, but she managed a smile. I went home hoping I had made her feel better, even for a few minutes. We agreed that as long as there were no others getting our kisses... we needed no title. Things were good.

    It's about a month later now, and I have seen her twice since then. I have tried everything in my power to talk to her... at first it would be just like "Hey, I haven't talked to you in a few days, give me a call". A week of that, and it turned to "Hey, it's me... I haven't talked to you in a while, and was wondering if you found someone new, or decided to stop talking to me.... call me". See, I decided to be friends first so if things didn't work out, we would still have the friendship. So, another week goes by and I see her online. "Hi".... nothing. She signs off. This happened about three or four nights in a row. I decided I must have done something wrong to deserve this treatment. I call one of my friends at her work place, and ask him to relay a message for her to call me. She laughs at the idea. My last resort was to write her an email telling her how I feel, just laying it all out there, how much I missed her, and I was sorry if I did something to hurt her. That I would love to talk to her, if she could give me a minute or two. the response I got was something like this.....

    Shawn,
    I am sorry. It's nothing you did. I didn't mean to hurt you.
    Love, Me

    Well, anyone that knows me knows I will not give up on something, especially if it's something or someone I believe in. So, she comes online tonight, and I ask her if we can talk some more (we talked briefly the night before ). We start talking, and I ask if I can see her. She says she isn't sure, and tries to convince me again that I did nothing wrong. I tell her I care about her, and I am not mad. She tried, the night before, to tell me that she is not anything that special, and that I should just forget it. Well, last time I checked it was my decision how I felt. Here is how most of the conversation went....

    ME: Should I just walk away?
    HER: I don't know what I want.
    HER: Shawn, there is someone else.
    Now I suspected this, and have even asked her..... no response. I got one now.... out of nowhere.
    ME: Oh
    ME: Should I just walk away?
    HER: I don't know what I want.
    Well I suppose if it was me she wanted I would have heard from her in the past few weeks.
    ME: I care about you and I wish you could see that. I would do anything for you. I want you to be happy.
    ME: And anything means walking away if I must. I don't want to interfere.
    HER: It's new. Can't I have friends?
    ME: Absolutely. But , you said it like "There is someone else".
    ME: I wish you knew how I feel, I'll let you be.... Good Luck.
    HER: What now you are running away?
    ME: I don't know what else to do, I am afraid of this hurting me more.
    ME: If you want to talk, call me before you go to bed.
    The call never came.

    Now, I care about this girl so much, she doesn't know the half of it. I am confused on what i should do. I don't want to interfere in this other thing she has going on... but, then again, I don't even want that other thing going on. I miss her so much. What should I do? Please leave a suggestion in the comments below!

    posted by djshawn at 8:20 AM 11 People have told me what they think.... click here! Don't be scared.

    Tuesday, October 04, 2005

    Don't be a Sellout!

    What does that mean? Well, I am not sure what it means to you... but, I am talking about bands and artists that make music that they believe in early in their careers, and then as they get older, change their style completely because their manager or label tell them to. They are doing it strictly for money and record sales, and they are dying to be popular. Here is an example... Matchbox Twenty was a great band, right? Here is one of their best songs, "Push", and it became popular because it was a great song. Now one of the reasons the band did so well is because of the lead singer Rob Thomas. He was obviously the brains and talent behind this group. That's what I always assumed, as did the rest of the world. Boy, did he fool us!
    The image “http://images.google.com/images?q=tbn:gQPXQcCVCnsJ:www.all-pictures-photos.com/images/rob-thomas/rob-thomas-010-img.jpg” cannot be displayed, because it contains errors.Rob has since ditched his bandmates( or did they ditch him? ) to become a solo artist. He obviously was not the talent behind Matchbox Twenty. How do I figure this out? Listen to one of his latest solo releases. It's terrible! He sold out!!! He might as well be singing about clouds and puppy dogs! His fan base has become kids half his age, and people that were in their early twenties listening to Matchbox Twenty should be sick!

    Rob, please call your friends, and beg them to let you come back. Listen, they will understand! You must hurry, I am sure they are searching for the next lead singer, and I am nervous that they may pick some has been from the 90's to replace you. And I just can't see Mark Mcgrath, Lou bega or Ricky Martin being the lead singer of your band!

    P.S. I will admit that Rob had one good song on his own.... "Smooth" featuring Santana. But I am sure Santana did not let Rob Thomas write anything. "Put the pen down, Rob!!!"

    Any links to songs are meant for entertainment purposes only... if you like a song get an account at EasyNews, or buy the cd!

    posted by djshawn at 8:45 PM 6 People have told me what they think.... click here! Don't be scared.

    Dirty Dishes


    Dirty Dishes! One of the most mundane, boring chores that exsists. But, when you only have 2 people sharing an apartment, it should not really be an issue. If you see dishes need done, do them. If you see clean dishes, put them away. There is nothing more frustrating than seeing a sinkful of dishes waiting to be cleaned... especially when you have a dishwasher!!! Thats right we have a dishwasher! I must admit that when we decided to share an apartment, he said "I hate doing dishes". I thought thats why he picked an apartment with a DISHWASHER. Ok, now I mention to him that we need to share this duty( he hates when I "complain" or "bitch" about things), and I recieve a note the next day that reads: I would have run the washer, but I don't know how.

    HAHA!!! Now, how can I be mad at that? Well, he is Bulgarian!

    P.S. If anyone else does not know how to use a dishwasher, let me know.

    posted by djshawn at 4:52 PM 7 People have told me what they think.... click here! Don't be scared.

    This is fun.... and stupid


    Put an x if it applies to you
    [ ] I am bisexual or homosexual.
    [x] I've consumed alcohol.
    [] I've run away from home. (i tried to when i was little)
    [x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
    [x ] I listen to political music.
    [ ] I have collected comic books.
    [ x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
    [x] I watch the news.
    [x ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
    [ ] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
    [x] I curse regularly.
    [x] I paid for that cell phone ring.
    [x ] I am a sports fanatic.
    [ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
    [ ] I love Spam.
    [] I bake well.
    [x] I would wear pajamas to school.
    [ ] I have a job.
    [ ] I love Martha Stewart.
    [ ] am guilty oF tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
    [x] I am sometimes self conscious.
    [x] I like to laugh.
    [ ] I smoke a pack a day.
    [x ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
    [x ] I can't swallow pills.
    [ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
    [] I eat fast food weekly.
    [] I have many scars.
    [ ] I've been out of this country.
    [x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room. [not until its dead, or i am, whichever comes first]
    [x] I am really ticklish.
    [x ] I've seen a therapist.
    [x] I love chocolate.
    [x] I sometimes bite my nails. [alot more than sometimes]
    [x] I play video games
    [x] I watch cartoons.
    [x] Gotten lost in my city.
    [x] Saw a shooting star
    [x] I had a serious surgery
    [x] Gone out in public in your pajamas
    [ x] I have Kissed a Stranger
    [x] Hugged a stranger
    [x ] Been in a fist fight
    [ ] Been arrested
    [x] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator
    [ x] Made out in an elevator
    [x] Swore at your parents
    [ ] Kicked a guy where it hurts.
    [x ] Been to a casino
    [ ] Been skydiving
    [x] Broken a bone
    [x ] Skipped school
    [x ] Played spin the bottle
    [x ] Gotten stitches
    [ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
    [x] Bitten somebody
    [x ] Been to Niagara Falls
    [x] Gotten the chicken pox
    [ ]Crashed into a friend's car
    [ ] Been to Japan
    [x] Ridden in a taxi
    [x] Shoplifted
    [ x] Been fired
    [] Ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
    [x] Had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
    [x] Stole something from your job
    [x] Gone on a blind date
    [x] Lied to a friend
    [] Had a crush on a teacher
    [ ] Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans
    [ ] Been married
    [ ] Gotten divorced
    [ x] Saw someone die
    [ ] Been to Africa
    [x] Driven over 400 miles in one day [closer too 1000]
    [ ] Been to Canada
    [ ] Been to Mexico
    [x] Been on a plane
    [x ] Thrown up in a bar
    [] Eaten Sushi
    [ ] Been snowboarding
    [ ] Been Skiing
    [ ] Been to a motor cross show
    [ ] Lost a child
    [x] Gone to college
    [ ] Graduated college
    [x ] Done hard drugs
    [x] Had someone cheat on you
    [xxx] Miss someone right now
    [x ] Slept with a co-worker
    [ ] Purposely set a part of myself on fire [its fun!]
    [x] Purposely hurt myself
    [x ] Been in an abusive relationship
    [x] Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
    [x] Made a snow angel
    [] Had a tea party
    [x] Fly or own a kite
    [x] Built a sand castle
    [x] Gone puddle jumping
    [x] Played dress up [ i was a power ranger a week or two ago]
    [x] Jumped into a pile of leaves
    [x] Gone sledding
    [x] Cheated while playing a game
    [x] Been lonely
    [x] Fallen asleep at work/school [i slept through several classes in high school]
    [x] Watched the sun set
    [ ] Felt an earthquake
    [x] Touched a snake
    [x] Slept beneath the stars
    [x] Been tickled
    [x] Been misunderstood
    [x] Won a contest
    [x] Ran a red light
    [ x] Been suspended from school
    [x] Been in a car accident
    [ ] Had braces
    [] Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
    [x] Had deja vu
    [x] kissed someone in the pouring rain
    [x] Hated the way you look
    [] Pole danced
    [x] Questioned your heart
    [] Been obsessed with post-it notes [i have four different colors of them right now]
    [x] Squished barefoot through the mud
    [x] Been lost
    [x] Been to the opposite side of the country
    [x] Swam in the ocean
    [x] Felt like dying
    [x] Cried yourself to sleep
    [x ] Played cops and robbers
    [] Recently colored with crayons
    [x] Sang karaoke
    [x] Paid for a meal with only coins
    [x] Done something you told yourself you wouldn't
    [x] Made prank phone calls
    [x] Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
    [x] Caught a snowflake on your tongue
    [x] Danced in the rain
    [x] Written a letter to Santa Claus
    [x] Blown bubbles
    [ x] Made a bonfire on the beach
    [x] Crashed a party
    [x] Gone rollerskating
    [x] Had a wish come true
    [] Worn pearls
    [ ] Jumped off a bridge
    [x]Screamed penis in public
    [x] Screamed vagina in public
    [] Ate dog/cat food [dog bones do not taste as good as they look]
    [] Told a complete stranger you loved them
    [x] Kissed a mirror
    [x] Sang in the shower
    [x] Had a dream that you married someone
    [] Glued your hand to something [more than a few times]
    [ ] Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole
    [ ] Kissed a fish
    [] Worn the opposite sexes clothes [that shirt fit me really well...]
    [x] Sat on a roof top
    [x] Screamed at the top of your lungs
    [ ] Done a one-handed cartwheel
    [x]Talked on the phone for more then 6 hours
    [x] Stayed up all night
    [x ] Didn't take a shower for a week. eww. [i was camping]
    [x] Climbed a tree
    [] Had a tree house
    [] Are scared to watch scary movies by yourself
    [] Worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say [if i have it wasn't on purpose]
    [ ] Played chicken
    [x] Pushed into a pool/lake with all your clothes on
    [x] Been told you're beautiful by a complete stranger [people say i have nice hair alot]
    [x] Been easily amused [all the time]
    [x ] Caught a fish then ate it
    [x] Caught a butterfly
    [x] Laughed so hard you cried
    [x]Cried so hard you laughed
    [x] Had someone moon/flash you
    [x] Cheated on a test
    [] Had a Britney Spears CD
    [x] Forgotten someone's name
    [] French braided someone's hair

    posted by djshawn at 12:51 AM 5 People have told me what they think.... click here! Don't be scared.

    Tuesday, September 20, 2005

    About Me... The American Dream


    Here is my ugly pic....

    Hey all, my name is Shawn. I have decided to create this blog of random thoughts and insights from my life, and my experiences. I have never done anything like this in my life. Not because I haven't wanted to, but because I am a pretty private person, and I do not like letting people close to me( In fear of being judged or hurt). But, since the majority of you are strangers, Here it goes....

    "The American Dream"...


    We all want it, don't we? I guess everyone has their own version of this dream, but I imagine most of them are similiar. Everyone wants the big house, the perfect spouse, the perfect kids, enough money to spend happily. Some want to be successful in their profession to the highest degree. And when I say successful I mean make a lot of money. I think the biggest difference between our dream and other peoples is that we want all this to come easily. Hard work has become something that our parents and grandparents tell us about. We believe that we are owed things, and should not have to work to hard to get them. We go to college to get a degree in something or other, and when we are done we believe there should be a career just waiting for us. Come on people, college is not hard work! Is it a pain in the ass? Yes. Hard? No. College is about as easy as high school, with less classes, and less responsibility. This is what makes it hard... It is more parties, girls( or boys ), games, free time, etc. Ok, maybe some of you had to work a job while attending classes, working at the book store 30 hours a week. I feel you. Its tough. Look up sarcasm.

    Now as you are patting yourself on the back, pick up the phone and call your father or grandfather. Tell him Hi, and that you miss him. Now, ask him what kind of job he had while in HIGH SCHOOL. Not college.... High School! My father worked at a lumber yard forty hours a week unloading trains full of wood. No coming home from school, sitting on the couch watching TRL. No sir, he worked because his father had left his mother( with her seven kids ), to fend for herself. If he didn't work, they didn't eat, have heat, or electric. He studied in his "free time", which was at like two in the morning. He fought sleepiness as he studied, and hoped to do well enough to get a scholarship to college. Without a scholarship there would be no college. Guess he didn't study enough, because he didn't go to college. He felt like a failure to his mother, two sisters and four brothers. They didn't see him as one, because he paid for food, lights, clothes, and anything else that your parents gave you. Thats Hard work, hard times, hard luck....

    posted by djshawn at 8:09 PM 5 People have told me what they think.... click here! Don't be scared.