I Feel Sorry for the Perfect Ones...

Feeling screwed up in a screwed up place, in a screwed up time, does not mean that you are screwed up.- Mark in "Pump up the Volume"

The Perfect Ones....

per·fect (pûrfkt)
adj.

1. Lacking nothing essential to the whole; complete of its nature or kind.
2. Being without defect or blemish: a perfect specimen.
3. Thoroughly skilled or talented in a certain field or area; proficient.
4. Completely suited for a particular purpose or situation: She was the perfect actress for the part.
5. 1. Completely corresponding to a description, standard, or type: a perfect circle; a perfect gentleman.
   2. Accurately reproducing an original: a perfect copy of the painting.
6. Complete; thorough; utter: a perfect fool.
7. Pure; undiluted; unmixed: perfect red.
8. Excellent and delightful in all respects: a perfect day.

We have all called someone "perfect". I don't think anyone really means it in its accurate definition, but we have all said it. Then again, should it really have a definition when we use it in this way? I mean, can't perfect be in the eye of the beholder? You know, just like beauty. I guess for the sake of this post.... the answer is "NO".

I think the biggest problem with calling someone perfect is that they may start believing it. And, that brings us to a pivital question... If you are perfect, can you ever do anything wrong? I mean, you would not be perfect if you could be wrong. That would be imperfect. Perfect is ugly to me. Call me crazy, but your imperfections are what make you beautiful. So, let's get this straight... Perfect=Ugly.... Imperfect=Beautiful. Guess I could never write for one of those Glamour magazines.

Let's look at this a little more closely, shall we? I have a friend that dates this girl that we'll call Amy. She is absolutely beautiful. She is a sweet girl that doesn't seem to have a care in the world. Why, you ask? Because he calls her perfect all the time, not only to his friends, but to her as well. I can't say that i haven't done this myself, but let me warn you.... You tell her that she is perfect too many times and, she will believe it. And Amy does. She gets everything her way, everytime. It could be something as innocent as where to go for dinner( I swear, if he was allergic to seafood, and she wanted to go to Red Lobster... they would go). It also can be something as serious as where he is going to work. Most importantly, she can do nothing wrong. She lies, cheats and probably murders... and she bats her little eyes, cries and screams out " I am sorry I am not perfect!" This would be a perfect time to tell her she is right. I mean, you don't have to be mean about it.... "Baby, no one is perfect", or, "I know you aren't perfect, that's why I love you". But no, what does he say? "Baby, don't say that.... you are perfect". And God forbid that he does something wrong! He will hear about it forever, and pay for it dearly. This has taken a toll and, he no longer thinks she is the one. He is stuck. And so miserable.

Ladies, stop trying to be perfect. We love you because you are not. We love you because you are different from the next. You are special. Unique. Quit reading those stupid magazines that are preaching that you need to be a certain way. I will tell you now, if you think you are perfect... I feel sorry for you. You are going to be alone for a long time. Or, even better, you are going to be with someone that hates you... but, at least he tells you that you are perfect.

For the girls that know they are not perfect... good for you. Can I give some advice to you, too? Well, I am gonna anyway. When your man makes a mistake, no matter how small or how big... Forgive him. Give him another chance. You know you are not perfect already, now you need to realize that he isn't either. We are all human. We make mistakes. We have flaws. You know deep in your heart if he loves you. You know if he means well. If you know these things, and treat each other the same... you'll be happy. You'll be loved.

Well, She never called......

Maybe my phone is broke..... Yeah, that's it! Damn phone!

Should I stay or should I go.......

Ok, well I am up again at 5:30 am.... big surprise? I can't sleep. I waited tonight for her call, and waited a little longer to see if she would logon to AIM. Nada. I have gotten a few comments on my previous post, and all have good points. I decided to go with the majority... the only problem I ran into is 3 people say chase her, and 3 say let it go. Can you guess which one were from men, and which from women? C'mon people, help me out.... I need more comments and advice. SEE BELOW.

Oh yeah... if you want to see my ugly ass, click here..... and gimme a 10! (P.S. It's not a picture of my ass.... I promise! )

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Why does she have me up at this absurd time? She doesn't even know I am up, she doesn't know how I feel, she doesn't know what she wants. And there you have it...

Let me explain a little bit, and maybe someone out there can tell me what to do...

I care about this girl an awful lot, I've told her this a time or two, and I would do about anything for her. We started off very friend-like, nothing serious at all, and we both had reasons for being weary and cautious. We both been hurt before, so there was a constant worry of being hurt again. I would drive to her house after a long day of work, sit on an opposite couch and watch a movie, or just sit and talk while watching TV. It was kinda odd and uncomfortable for a while, but there was nowhere I'd rather be. We went to the movies a couple of times, went to see a ballgame... nothing major, but good times. See I had to be careful, I could not afford to get hurt again this soon. I was afraid. Once and awhile, she would ask what we were... I never had an answer. I was on may way to her house one night, and she called me in tears and told me it was not a good night for me to come over. Her ex-boyfriend called her, and he was with another girl. I knew how she was feeling, so instead of going home... I stopped and got her some flowers and took them to her. I could tell she been crying, but she managed a smile. I went home hoping I had made her feel better, even for a few minutes. We agreed that as long as there were no others getting our kisses... we needed no title. Things were good.

It's about a month later now, and I have seen her twice since then. I have tried everything in my power to talk to her... at first it would be just like "Hey, I haven't talked to you in a few days, give me a call". A week of that, and it turned to "Hey, it's me... I haven't talked to you in a while, and was wondering if you found someone new, or decided to stop talking to me.... call me". See, I decided to be friends first so if things didn't work out, we would still have the friendship. So, another week goes by and I see her online. "Hi".... nothing. She signs off. This happened about three or four nights in a row. I decided I must have done something wrong to deserve this treatment. I call one of my friends at her work place, and ask him to relay a message for her to call me. She laughs at the idea. My last resort was to write her an email telling her how I feel, just laying it all out there, how much I missed her, and I was sorry if I did something to hurt her. That I would love to talk to her, if she could give me a minute or two. the response I got was something like this.....

Shawn,
I am sorry. It's nothing you did. I didn't mean to hurt you.
Love, Me

Well, anyone that knows me knows I will not give up on something, especially if it's something or someone I believe in. So, she comes online tonight, and I ask her if we can talk some more (we talked briefly the night before ). We start talking, and I ask if I can see her. She says she isn't sure, and tries to convince me again that I did nothing wrong. I tell her I care about her, and I am not mad. She tried, the night before, to tell me that she is not anything that special, and that I should just forget it. Well, last time I checked it was my decision how I felt. Here is how most of the conversation went....

ME: Should I just walk away?
HER: I don't know what I want.
HER: Shawn, there is someone else.
Now I suspected this, and have even asked her..... no response. I got one now.... out of nowhere.
ME: Oh
ME: Should I just walk away?
HER: I don't know what I want.
Well I suppose if it was me she wanted I would have heard from her in the past few weeks.
ME: I care about you and I wish you could see that. I would do anything for you. I want you to be happy.
ME: And anything means walking away if I must. I don't want to interfere.
HER: It's new. Can't I have friends?
ME: Absolutely. But , you said it like "There is someone else".
ME: I wish you knew how I feel, I'll let you be.... Good Luck.
HER: What now you are running away?
ME: I don't know what else to do, I am afraid of this hurting me more.
ME: If you want to talk, call me before you go to bed.
The call never came.

Now, I care about this girl so much, she doesn't know the half of it. I am confused on what i should do. I don't want to interfere in this other thing she has going on... but, then again, I don't even want that other thing going on. I miss her so much. What should I do? Please leave a suggestion in the comments below!

Don't be a Sellout!

What does that mean? Well, I am not sure what it means to you... but, I am talking about bands and artists that make music that they believe in early in their careers, and then as they get older, change their style completely because their manager or label tell them to. They are doing it strictly for money and record sales, and they are dying to be popular. Here is an example... Matchbox Twenty was a great band, right? Here is one of their best songs, "Push", and it became popular because it was a great song. Now one of the reasons the band did so well is because of the lead singer Rob Thomas. He was obviously the brains and talent behind this group. That's what I always assumed, as did the rest of the world. Boy, did he fool us!
Rob has since ditched his bandmates( or did they ditch him? ) to become a solo artist. He obviously was not the talent behind Matchbox Twenty. How do I figure this out? Listen to one of his latest solo releases. It's terrible! He sold out!!! He might as well be singing about clouds and puppy dogs! His fan base has become kids half his age, and people that were in their early twenties listening to Matchbox Twenty should be sick!

Rob, please call your friends, and beg them to let you come back. Listen, they will understand! You must hurry, I am sure they are searching for the next lead singer, and I am nervous that they may pick some has been from the 90's to replace you. And I just can't see Mark Mcgrath, Lou bega or Ricky Martin being the lead singer of your band!

P.S. I will admit that Rob had one good song on his own.... "Smooth" featuring Santana. But I am sure Santana did not let Rob Thomas write anything. "Put the pen down, Rob!!!"

Any links to songs are meant for entertainment purposes only... if you like a song get an account at EasyNews, or buy the cd!

Dirty Dishes

Dirty Dishes! One of the most mundane, boring chores that exsists. But, when you only have 2 people sharing an apartment, it should not really be an issue. If you see dishes need done, do them. If you see clean dishes, put them away. There is nothing more frustrating than seeing a sinkful of dishes waiting to be cleaned... especially when you have a dishwasher!!! Thats right we have a dishwasher! I must admit that when we decided to share an apartment, he said "I hate doing dishes". I thought thats why he picked an apartment with a DISHWASHER. Ok, now I mention to him that we need to share this duty( he hates when I "complain" or "bitch" about things), and I recieve a note the next day that reads: I would have run the washer, but I don't know how.

HAHA!!! Now, how can I be mad at that? Well, he is Bulgarian!

P.S. If anyone else does not know how to use a dishwasher, let me know.

This is fun.... and stupid

Put an x if it applies to you
[ ] I am bisexual or homosexual.
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[] I've run away from home. (i tried to when i was little)
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x ] I listen to political music.
[ ] I have collected comic books.
[ x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[x] I watch the news.
[x ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[ ] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[x] I curse regularly.
[x] I paid for that cell phone ring.
[x ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[ ] I love Spam.
[] I bake well.
[x] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I have a job.
[ ] I love Martha Stewart.
[ ] am guilty oF tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I am sometimes self conscious.
[x] I like to laugh.
[ ] I smoke a pack a day.
[x ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[x ] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
[] I eat fast food weekly.
[] I have many scars.
[ ] I've been out of this country.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room. [not until its dead, or i am, whichever comes first]
[x] I am really ticklish.
[x ] I've seen a therapist.
[x] I love chocolate.
[x] I sometimes bite my nails. [alot more than sometimes]
[x] I play video games
[x] I watch cartoons.
[x] Gotten lost in my city.
[x] Saw a shooting star
[x] I had a serious surgery
[x] Gone out in public in your pajamas
[ x] I have Kissed a Stranger
[x] Hugged a stranger
[x ] Been in a fist fight
[ ] Been arrested
[x] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[ x] Made out in an elevator
[x] Swore at your parents
[ ] Kicked a guy where it hurts.
[x ] Been to a casino
[ ] Been skydiving
[x] Broken a bone
[x ] Skipped school
[x ] Played spin the bottle
[x ] Gotten stitches
[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
[x] Bitten somebody
[x ] Been to Niagara Falls
[x] Gotten the chicken pox
[ ]Crashed into a friend's car
[ ] Been to Japan
[x] Ridden in a taxi
[x] Shoplifted
[ x] Been fired
[] Ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
[x] Had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
[x] Stole something from your job
[x] Gone on a blind date
[x] Lied to a friend
[] Had a crush on a teacher
[ ] Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans
[ ] Been married
[ ] Gotten divorced
[ x] Saw someone die
[ ] Been to Africa
[x] Driven over 400 miles in one day [closer too 1000]
[ ] Been to Canada
[ ] Been to Mexico
[x] Been on a plane
[x ] Thrown up in a bar
[] Eaten Sushi
[ ] Been snowboarding
[ ] Been Skiing
[ ] Been to a motor cross show
[ ] Lost a child
[x] Gone to college
[ ] Graduated college
[x ] Done hard drugs
[x] Had someone cheat on you
[xxx] Miss someone right now
[x ] Slept with a co-worker
[ ] Purposely set a part of myself on fire [its fun!]
[x] Purposely hurt myself
[x ] Been in an abusive relationship
[x] Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
[x] Made a snow angel
[] Had a tea party
[x] Fly or own a kite
[x] Built a sand castle
[x] Gone puddle jumping
[x] Played dress up [ i was a power ranger a week or two ago]
[x] Jumped into a pile of leaves
[x] Gone sledding
[x] Cheated while playing a game
[x] Been lonely
[x] Fallen asleep at work/school [i slept through several classes in high school]
[x] Watched the sun set
[ ] Felt an earthquake
[x] Touched a snake
[x] Slept beneath the stars
[x] Been tickled
[x] Been misunderstood
[x] Won a contest
[x] Ran a red light
[ x] Been suspended from school
[x] Been in a car accident
[ ] Had braces
[] Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
[x] Had deja vu
[x] kissed someone in the pouring rain
[x] Hated the way you look
[] Pole danced
[x] Questioned your heart
[] Been obsessed with post-it notes [i have four different colors of them right now]
[x] Squished barefoot through the mud
[x] Been lost
[x] Been to the opposite side of the country
[x] Swam in the ocean
[x] Felt like dying
[x] Cried yourself to sleep
[x ] Played cops and robbers
[] Recently colored with crayons
[x] Sang karaoke
[x] Paid for a meal with only coins
[x] Done something you told yourself you wouldn't
[x] Made prank phone calls
[x] Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
[x] Caught a snowflake on your tongue
[x] Danced in the rain
[x] Written a letter to Santa Claus
[x] Blown bubbles
[ x] Made a bonfire on the beach
[x] Crashed a party
[x] Gone rollerskating
[x] Had a wish come true
[] Worn pearls
[ ] Jumped off a bridge
[x]Screamed penis in public
[x] Screamed vagina in public
[] Ate dog/cat food [dog bones do not taste as good as they look]
[] Told a complete stranger you loved them
[x] Kissed a mirror
[x] Sang in the shower
[x] Had a dream that you married someone
[] Glued your hand to something [more than a few times]
[ ] Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole
[ ] Kissed a fish
[] Worn the opposite sexes clothes [that shirt fit me really well...]
[x] Sat on a roof top
[x] Screamed at the top of your lungs
[ ] Done a one-handed cartwheel
[x]Talked on the phone for more then 6 hours
[x] Stayed up all night
[x ] Didn't take a shower for a week. eww. [i was camping]
[x] Climbed a tree
[] Had a tree house
[] Are scared to watch scary movies by yourself
[] Worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say [if i have it wasn't on purpose]
[ ] Played chicken
[x] Pushed into a pool/lake with all your clothes on
[x] Been told you're beautiful by a complete stranger [people say i have nice hair alot]
[x] Been easily amused [all the time]
[x ] Caught a fish then ate it
[x] Caught a butterfly
[x] Laughed so hard you cried
[x]Cried so hard you laughed
[x] Had someone moon/flash you
[x] Cheated on a test
[] Had a Britney Spears CD
[x] Forgotten someone's name
[] French braided someone's hair